I Can Love You

Introduction

Being attracted to someone isn't just something you experience on the daily basis, well in my case that's how I feel, it takes a whole lot for me to actually like someone it don't matter if you cute as hell, you can easily not have a good personality.

But what do you do when the person you're attracted to is someone else's? Honestly I don't know, I guess it's hard to really give an answer..... well in my situation it took a lot of trial and errors to figure out that answer...
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College (Present Day)

"Kiani wait up!" I heard a familiar voice coming my way, I turned around and seen my friend Lenox.

"Hey girl, what's up?" I knew what the deal was since everyone heard about my situation thanks to social media.

"What's this mess I heard you got yourself into? I know you ain't serious?" She looked at me like I was crazy

"Lenox I can't make you understand how I feel about it, yes I know it's bad but don't believe everything you hear?" I rolled my eyes and sat down on the nearest bench.

"Girl you mean to tell me, you going to leave  and move back to Cali with a dude that ain't even...." she was puzzled

"No girl... I've been planning on leaving, it's not him it's for college, I got accepted into my dream school Lenox, it just so happens to be where he's going to be living...." I sighed

"GIRL HE IS M...." she coughed a little, "He's in a relationship" She looked at me.

"Not you too... c'mon Lenox you suppose to be my homegirl I'm not tryna hear that judgement bullshit everybody been pumping since it came out." I rolled my eyes

"I am your homegirl, I'm telling you it's not worth it, and how long has this shit been going on???" She sat down

"9 months...." I cleared my throat

"BISH!!  You just now telling me? Is that why.... Mason left???" She rose her eyebrow

"Partially yes, me and him was gonna break up anyways..." I sighed

"So is Kuan serious about you?" She looked at me

"I guess, he been around awhile...everyone likes him and now since everyone knows my huge secret...it's bad Lennox my own mother is seriously mad at me." I got a little emotional

"Girl...from what I'm hearing, y'all should've known it was gonna be a lot of bad reactions, you messed with him. You had to know exactly what the situation is, I get it y'all fell for each other and you couldn't help it but damn..." she shook her head

"It's my fault I know... I didn't want everybody to get mad at me for liking him...or letting it happen, it was bound to happen everyone seen it before I did and he even knew. nobody should get mad at me and him for having a connection... he should've never made that crazy ass decision at 20 anyways..." I rolled my eyes

"Well...I don't know Kiani, I just seriously don't know what to do." She rolled her eyes

"Just listen to me and be my friend without being extremely judgmental okay?, I gotta go..." I got up from the bench and walked towards my car. I felt my phone vibrating

"Hello" I answered my phone

Phone call
Kuan: We gotta talk babe
Me: I already know
Kuan: why she say all that shit about us? I get she didn't want us together but damn...
Me: I been told you that was gonna happen...even when that night happened I told you that we couldn't do that nor be together
Kuan: Kiani what you want me to do? We been digging on each other since I came out here, it wasn't no secret you was feeling me like that and I knew sooner or later we was gonna end up doing something
Me: well look what the hell happened
Kuan: fuck em? I love you okay? Shit I made a mistake and I feel bad but I know we belong together and I'm not worried about what everybody saying, they was talking shit when I came out there about what I should do with my life and how I shouldn't be making a huge decision to get married but look, shit happens.... I messed up and I got you involved...
Me: mistake?
Kuan: Kiani....
Me: I should've listened to my better judgment and never messed with you
Kuan: Babe... it's not your fault alright? I'll fix it I promise
Me: yeah my reputation already fucked up, my mom is already mad at me and you
Kuan: she kinda sensed that was going on from the jump...
Me: yah but I lied to her
Kuan: listen, meet me at the spot and we can talk this out more okay?
Me: I guess...
Kuan: I love you..
Me: I love you too...

I hung up the phone and got into my car, I held onto the steering wheel, I knew it was gonna cause issues but I didn't think this big.. my own blood mad at me over falling in love...