Help Me...please!?(Adopted By One Direction fanfic)

CHAPTER 20 PT. 1

Chapter 20 part 1

Wey Hey! Chapter 20! Welcome!

so I don’t usually do this before chapters but i’m just so excited that i’m at chapter twenty YES!

Okay so I just wanted to thank everyone for all your lovely comments and votes and my story at this point is at about 16.1k reads so thank you so much.

I decided Im gunna call you guys lovelies being I already do that 

so heres my kik incase you ahve ideas or anything and owuld like to tell me them or you just want to chat. But i love you guys so much and ill put my kik at the end of the chapter too!

kik; :LEXI_TOMLINSON_17 in

-Lexi

NOW ON TO THE STORY PEASANTS !!!!!!!!!!!

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(The middle of the night or my dreams)

‘Madison stop right now, your such an ignorant little girl aren’t you’

Oh my god i though they left they were gone for so long and now there back again

My thoughts

They tortured me for almost my whole life. They would make fun of me. scream at me.Not allow me to eat. Or love. or care. or depend on someone else or trust anyone.Sure they kept me safe from the horrible world around me but worst of all the would make me cut.

I hate to cut. Its not painful.It just leaves scars so that I can never forget. It like each scar represents my a part of my past or something about me the wasn’t good. But theres nothing good about me. so theres a lot of scars

‘thats right Madison your fat, worthless, and ugly. these boys don’t love you they don’t care about you. there going to hurt you even if they say they wont they will. Then they will leave and you wont have anybody but me‘

‘I wont go away anymore Maddie I’m always here with you’

‘i’m not fat,worthless or ugly‘ i fight back with myself

‘Come  on we both know you are’

‘no i’m not the boys haven’t hurt me yet and i don’t think they will’

‘sweetie when am i wrong, exactly never i’m never wrong i’m just keeping you safe and making sure you don’t get hurt again’

‘now get up and be quiet no screaming’

right then I woke up and looked around the room. Niall wasn’t there anymore. why would he leave.

‘Okay now go, go do it now’

I knew exactly what that went.

‘no i don’t want to the boys i don’t think they know yet and i don’t want them to find out’

‘I don’t care just do it and don’t get caught’

I stood there hesitant

‘NOW!‘ my thoughts screamed at me and I walked slowly to my bathroom.

I searched around the bathroom. I went through all the stuff. There it is I thought as the shinny razor caught my eye. I walked closer to it and reached my shaky arm towards it. I tried to stop myself but my I couldn’t control it.