I was sitting in my last class, listening to my teacher until I received a text message.
Shawn: What's wrong? Why are you ignoring me for 2 weeks now? Have you lost your feelings for me?
2 weeks ago I confessed my feeling to my best friend, Shawn and he told me he has feeling for me too. I was really happy until I received a letter and from then on I started to avoid him.
But I can't keep doing this. I need to explain him everything. Running my hands through my hair I decided what to do.
Me: Meet me at the back of the school after classes. Don't tell anyone.
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After I sent the text, the bell rang. I gathered my things and got out of the classroom. Nearing to my locker, I entered the passcode and put my stuff in it. Slamming it shut, I started jogging to the place where I promised I would meet Shawn.
He wasn't there yet and I started to think how to explain him everything. I decided I'll just tell him the truth. After waiting for 2 minutes I felt a light tap on my shoulder. Turning around, I was now standing face to face with him.
He immediately hugged me tightly, pulling me closer to his chest. I closed my eyes, wrapping my arms around him and inhaling his scent, knowing that I won't have this opportunity ever again in a very short time.
He pulled away, his arms still wrapped around my shoulder.
"Why have you been avoiding me?" He asked. I didn't answer. What do I say?
"Talk to me." He whispered. I could see the hurt in his eyes. It broke my heart knowing that what I'm going to say is going to hurt him even more.
"We can't be together, Shawn." I mumbled. I tried to avoid eye contact because if I looked in the pair of my favourite eyes, I know it's going to be even more hard and painful to let go.
"What?" He whispered. "Why, you don't feel the same way anymore?" His voice broke at the end. You could hear the hurt in his voice but not only that, you could hear the sound of my heart breaking into million tiny pieces.
"No, I do. That's not the problem."
"Then what is, Y/n?" His eyes started to glisten. He is making this even harder then it already is. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.
"Tell me!" He yelled now the anger taking over his sadness.
"The problem is that I'm moving out!" I yelled. The colour drained from his face. Guilt washed all over me.
"W-what? When?" He stuttered.
"In 2 days." I said, looking at my feet.
"Why are you leaving?"
"For college."
"But why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I didn't want to hurt you."
"But if you told me we could've spent your last days together."
"That's exactly why I didn't tell you." I said sighing.
"What do you mean?! We would have the best time together! We--" I cut him off
"That's the thing! How do you not understand! If we got together, it would've been even harder to let go! Now we both are going to get hurt!" I yelled my voice breaking.
The air got thick with such a painful silence.
"So this is it?" He asked, his voice barely audible.
"I'm sorry." I whispered. I tried so hard to hold back the tears that were trying to escape but I failed.
"Oh, baby, please don't cry." He said pulling me closer. By the numerous times his voice broke in one sentence I could tell he was trying not to break down in front of me too.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I sobbed into his shoulder, hugging him tightly. This is so unfair. Everyone always told me to follow my dreams. What if he was my dream? I guess John Green was right.
World is not a wish-granting factory.
"Shh, baby, don't cry, it's not your fault." He cooed in my ear.
After I calmed down I pulled away, putting my hands at each side of his face, looking into his eyes and at every feature, remembering them.
"I love you." He whispered, a single tear running down his face. I wiped the tear away with my thumb, caressing his cheek.
"I love you too." I said bringing my lips to his. He deepened the kiss, pulling me so close that there was no space between our bodies anymore.
I kissed him like I couldn't breath and his lips were air.
After pulling away he said to me:
"If we are meant to be, fate will bring us back to each other."
-my quote
Oh my god. You don't know how proud I am of this one. And I teared up while writing this so I closed the app for a few minutes and stopped writing so I won't cry.
I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did! I love you♥︎
And thank you so much for 200 reads!! That's so amazing!!
Now let's try this. 7 votes and 15 comments for a part 2 💌
03/02/17
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