Nightmare - An undertale love story

The jump

I was staying at the edge of the gulf. I had two tears on my cheeck and a million thoughts in my mind . I wanted to end all my sadness , all my problems , all my life. It was my fault , i was too weak for this world ...or this isn.t even my world. " You should better go back from the pit with monsters you came" they did not  always said that ; it was a time when they was my friends ,but after my body changes appeared , and i started to look like an horrible creature , everybody became mad at me. I don.t know why that happend to me , why i started to look like a living dead . Now , i don.t look that bad , the changes ended , the skin stopped falling but became more pale , my teeth grew up , but they.re now sharp  fangs , my hair is not falling anymore , but is white now , just like my eyes , and the damaged nails are now black claws . I don.t look that bad like i did when i was 12 , when my puberty and metamorphose started , but the nickname Nightmare is still how they call me. I was ugly as fuck , and they always said that i scared or disgust them , and they started to call me like that , saying that i cause them nightmares because of my look. From 15 years old and by now , at 16 my life was a little bit better , but sometimes the past is coming back from the darkness , and the pain is showing again. And now , all i want is to sleep , forever , and pretend that all my life was just a nightmare . That " pit with monsters" is in fact the Underground , the places where they said are living monsters whom were expelled by the humans because they was afraid of them. Some people don.t belive in monsters , others could say that they saw them in the middle of the night and eating humans alive .
I that is what they want , if everybody really hate me , and if my place is really in Underground , then fine , a will do what i have to do...even if i know that i will die because of the jump , or a monster will eat me , or the hunger will let me cold.
I am afraid , but...