Your My Other Half

Chapter 4: The Dance

     Despite my nervousness I just pushed all the possibilities to the back of my head. Instead Diesel tells me to think about how much fun we will both have at this dance, and how I am strong and can ignore them. I don't know why he likes me so much, when I look in the mirror all I happen to see is ordinary. Although many tell me otherwise. As I get out of the car, I get butterflies in my stomach. I am almost hesitant to even step towards the big doors of my high school. But seeing Diesel makes me confident and makes me want to run through those doors and dance. I never knew I had so much of my old self still left. "Okay, you ready to do this?" Diesel asks as he stands with me and entwines his hand into mine. "Yeah, let's do this!" I shout as I drag Diesel along with me as I rush to the door. Right now I don't care what others think of me, I just want to be myself for once. I want to bring my old personality out of hiding and become the real me again! As soon as me and Diesel walk through the door, people stare. I can feel their eyes burning into my soft skin, but I shake off the feeling and I continue walking with Diesel to the dance floor. "Wow, I didn't know you are secretly a party girl!" Diesel says, laughing. I laugh, and I realize how much I have been missing out on. I could have made new friends, instead of hide myself from the world, not wanting to be emotionally scarred again. That's why we have forgiveness and hope in this world. Hope and love can overcome all feelings of anger and rage. I am me again! I hear my favorite song come on and I start to dance and I am suddenly flailing my arms to the beat. I can feel the bass in my chest and it's what is making my heart beat. I just let the music take over me and I chose to have fun for once. I can hear slight whispers about me, coming from my old friends, and I DON'T CARE! "Your even more amazing!" Diesel says. I smile and I say "You haven't met the old me. I used to be open to everyone, helping out everyone I see, a smile plastered across my face everyday, not afraid to be me, not afraid to have fun, friends with everyone I see even if they hated me. I used to be bright and fun." I say, sort of smiling. Diesel doesn't seem shocked but he replies with this "I knew you were hiding the real you and I knew you were special the moment I laid my eyes on you. Don't say that you used to be, you still are, you just buried that part of you deep inside, trying to protect it from the people who wanted to change you and steal that away. Don't worry, I am here to dig that part of you up, I am going to make you be what you used to be, again." Diesel means this, I can tell this in his eyes, his tone of voice, and his sweet smile. Diesel really cares about me, and he wants to be there for me. Diesel loves me! I think I love Diesel too! "I love you Diesel, thank you so much. For caring about me." I say smiling and nuzzling my head into his chest, I squeeze his hand for a second. "I love you too Hazel. Although I have to admit it's not just caring about you that makes me want to help you. When I see you down and sad, it hurts me. I feel the pain you feel, but it's worse. It always hurts me when someone I love so much and is so beautiful is in pain. Hazel you are the only one who has been able to heal my broken heart I've had for so many years. Right now, you are the only reason my heart is beating. I would be dead inside without you." Diesel says, I can see tears coming to his eyes, as one falls down his cheek I take my thumb and gently swipe it away. We stay silent for the slow dance, and he just holds me close, hand in hand, my head resting on his shoulder. I am interrupted abruptly from slow dancing when I feel something cold run down my back and soon in my hair. I quickly turn around and see my old best friends about ready to pour more of a half melted red snow cone on my dress. I take my hand and grab what's left of the melted snow cone and wipe it all over my old best friend's dress. Her white dress is smeared and wet with red color. "Oh my god! You wrecked my dress! Your so pathetic!" Taylor screams at me. "You may have wrecked my dress too, but you aren't going to wreck this night! Stop trying to put me down, it doesn't work anymore. I am done with all of you. I would have never done this to you! Why do you hate me? I never did anything wrong besides be nice to you. And this? This is payback for all that you have done to me!" I shout at her, fuming with anger. Taylor has no reaction out loud but I can sense that I just ruined all of her plans to bring me down. "I hate you! That's why I do this! Diesel only hangs out with you because he feels bad for you. What? Did you actually think he likes you?" Taylor says laughing madly. "You know what? I feel bad for you because your going to waste your life just trying to bring others down! You can't hurt me any longer. What you all have done to me have made me stronger than ever!" I shout back. I see Sydney in the corner of my right eye starting to throw a punch. I stop her in mid air my grabbing her wrist and shoving it back down. Sydney is startled. With me doing that on the other side Avery gets mad and I can't catch her in time but I duck so she falls over because she was trying to knock me out. I am suddenly flattened to the ground at Taylor jumps on me. I get mad and get up, but then she drags me down again. So I purposely fall and smash my shoulder into her. She yelps but punches me in the ribs. It hurts but makes me mad, and rage took over me. I immediately throw my fist and plant a punch into Taylor's face, square in the mouth and nose. I get up off of her and grab my things and drag Diesel out the door. Diesel is stunned, he doesn't say a word until we are in the car. "I'm sorry. I couldn't just stand there and do nothing. Anger took over me, I'll clean your car out later." I say, trying to tone the anger out of my voice. I think about what I have just done and I start to tear up. Diesel is still quiet. "Is that true, do you just feel bad for me?" I ask, my eyes are waterfalls by now. "No of course not Hazel. Don't cry, they deserved it." Diesel says. "They always turn me into to someone I don't know. I don't think this is going to work between us Diesel, I just can't." I say.