*Haruhi'S POV*
I have been isolating myself ever since I had broke up with Tamaki. My dark brown eyes slowly opened as I slithered out of my bed. It feels so much larger without Tamaki in it. Tamaki just had this personality that feels like electricity in a human form. Such a vibrant persona all around but not anymore...ever since I broke his heart, he's a complete opposite from what he originally was. I walked into my bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. Nothing about myself is correct: my hair is an absolute mess, my face is pale and I have horrendous dark circles underneath my eyes which are probably an indicator that I haven't been sleeping properly for quite some time now. As I stare at myself, a small tear from my eye goes slowly down to my chin and that makes me lose all control over myself. I break down in tears. Something I never thought would escape my mouth.
"I miss that idiot.," I whispered but it felt like the words echoed in my mind.
I turn around and turn on the shower so my father doesn't hear me weep. Dad has already been worrying way too much about me these last couple of days. He doesn't need to know about this little moment I'm having.
I miss being held, I miss being spoiled, I miss his smile. Oh lord, do I miss the way I would make him laugh.
I glared up at myself as the mirror began to fog. I know I shouldn't, but I'm tempted to contact him but I'm the one that left things on a rough note.
Tamaki has everybody. He has support from the entire club and every girl in the school. I don't have anybody. The only person who even tried to help me with this whole situation is Hikaru and my father. Also, Kaoru, if you count the fact that he obviously helped out Hikaru write out the messages he sent me.
I go to my and grab my cellular device on my bed I scroll through mt contacts. I only have seven, 6 of them being all the other hosts and one of them being my father. I see Tamaki's next to his name is a heart and my all time favourite picture of him. I sigh deeply has my finger hovers over his contact name. Even if he did answer me, what would I say? It would probably go something like this.
"Hey, I know I broke your heart to the point where it's unrepairable but I just really need to be held by you right now"
It would never work. I wish it would work like that. I need him. I need Tamaki, I need my Tamaki. I scrolled down my contacts and sent a message to Kaoru instead of Tamaki. I can't believe I'm acting like this.
"I miss him Kaoru."
Five minutes later and still no response back from
Everybody is probably sick of hearing this from both Tamaki and I. I mean.. That is if he's even talking about how he misses me. Why would he even miss me? I wouldn't miss me. I broke him and I broke myself in the process. I laid back into my bed and stared at my ceiling as I allowed tears flow from my eyes. I am broken and I broke him.
After a solid hour passes, I finally get a text back from Kaoru.
"Hey, sorry I didn't get back to you earlier, I was out with Hikaru and I left my phone at home. What's going on?" Kaoru wrote to me
I stared at this text for a minute. Because, What is going on? what's happening?
"I miss Tamaki-senpai." I vaguely respond back to him
"I understand that Haru, what do you miss about him?"
I think the better question would be, what don't I miss about him
"Everything. I miss absolutely everything about him. He treated me like a queen. He smelt nice, His hugs were warm and calming, he made me feel protected and his kisses were so full of passion" I responded back to him
"Then why did you end what seemed to be so perfect?" Kaoru seemed to respond in less than a second
shit
Kaoru sent a second message moments after
"Listen. I went to Milord's estate the other day with Hikaru to check up on him. He's a complete mess, he doesn't look or even acts himself anymore. He's in just much pain as you are right now, if not more. You two spent almost two years together, I just don't understand what happened between you two. You need to talk to me Haruhi"
I stared at my screen blankly. I was moody that day, Tamaki was pushing each and every one of my buttons, I snapped, it ended. I regret everything. I shouldn't have allowed my emotions to take over me. But I did, there's no changing that now. How could I explain that moment in time?
"It's complicated Kaoru.. I was being emotional" I sent back to Kaoru
No response. I put my phone on the charger and fell onto my messy bed still conjuring the memories that Tamaki and I had together.
*Kyoya's POV*
I slept over at Tamaki's house due to him needing a companion in his time of heartache. My glasses are on the table near his bed side and I am in his gigantic king size bed, staring at Tamaki while he remains in such a deep slumber after being up crying and chatting with me at 12am - 3am. Tamaki seems at peace while he is unconscious but I know as soon as he awakens he will face the cruel reality he lives in. I want to be able to protect him from our world's dangers but I am a realist and I know that is flawed and careless thinking.
The sun peaks through the window and shines in the direction where Tamaki is on the bed. He groans a bit then positions his whole body away from the light thus becoming closer to me on the bed we lie on together. "Kyoya-Chan?" Tamaki mumbles in such a soft and sweet little voice. "Huh?" I reply when I hear Tamaki refers to me. "Glad to know you're still here," Tamaki says rubbing his eyes.
"I am so thankful you were here for me."
"You would do the same for me. Don't mention it!" I say with a grin on my face as Tamaki and I make eye contact with each other.
Tamaki crawls to where I am on the bed and places his head on my thigh and caresses my leg.
"I still have feelings for Haruhi but I feel such deflation of affection towards her. I don't hate her; I don't think I ever will but I just don't want her anywhere near me. Her presences evokes the feeling of being bitten by a venomous snake and I don't think I need that in my life as of right now." Tamaki says while still his hand goes in a up and down motion to caress my leg.
"It's your first heartbreak," I say slowly placing my hand onto Tamaki's back, rubbing it also in synchronization with the way how he caresses my leg. "Love is cruel when first enter it's play field but you will get the hang of it. Maybe not now but later you will."
I feel a tear run down my leg, followed by whimpering from Tamaki. "These aren't tears sparked by sadness but tears sparked by the realization of how much I needed your wise words in my life." Tamaki says looking up at me then pressing his face into my stomach and hugging onto me tightly.
