Loving And Being Yourself.
Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are. - Kurt Cobain
Doctors, yeah, they’re cool, saving lives and stuff. Teachers are teaching people how to make it in the future, and I , well, I haven’t figured that out yet. See, these jobs and people, there’s something about it. I think maybe it’s too normal and believe me, I could never do the things these intelligent people do, but I think its because its not for me.
What sucks the most is that there’s a lot of people out there who only have these jobs for the money. Where others enjoy it and absorb the love and passion they have being these well employed people.
I Mackenzie, think its important to do things you love. Because life is too short.
When I was about 9 I wanted to be as different as possible. I wasnt sure how but it had to be done. I’ve spent a good chunk of my life pleading to be on stage infront of thousands of people doing some sort of broad way show or being part of a punk rock band. Every school is filled with the same preppy cheer leaders and jocks who would rather party than paint a picture. I think that a lot of people have potential but majority of them don’t use it. Why? Because theyre afraid. They were afraid of what people would say. This upset me because people shouldnt care about what others thought or said. All that mattered was whether or not people felt good about themselves.
It took me some time to actually figure this out, because for me, being different from everyone else seemed cool. Until it started happening.
"Why is your hair purple?" "You cant dance" "I’ve seen better drawings then that." "Nobody ever wears rainbow coloured socks to school, that’s weird" "blue hair?" "You dye your hair too much." "Your makeup is too thick" "stop dressing like that, its not normal."
This was hard for me , because I didn’t understand exactly why they said this, until I asked my father one night during dinner. He said, "Mackenzie, not everyone is going to like you." and by this time I was fully aware of that, I just didn’t get why. "Some people aren’t fond of change, so when they see it, it repels them." this made enough sense to my 12 year old brain and gave me enough understanding.
These small judgements still keep going and they always will, because if there’s one thing I’ve learned in the passed 13 years, its that you’re never going to be perfect to everyone. There’s only one person in the world that you could possibly be, and that person is nobody but you. If you don’t be the best you can be, then you wont be happy in the long run and everyone who lives their life doing the jobs they only do for money will end up saying, "man, I wish I would’ve done that thing I loved instead of sitting here watching my clock tic for what’s seemed like forever."
Personally, I think having lot’s of confidence is good too, it helps when speaking for yourself or simply walking down the hall of your school. Here’s an example: smile more. It improves the look of your confidence and it feels great too.
People will respond better to your outside confidence and this will then put you at ease and will make it easier for you to feel good.
Have good manners, no matter what, and be kind. Everyone likes someone who is nice and someone they can depend on whether they are sad or are in need of help.
Lastly, I think its important to love yourself unconditionally because if you don’t you’ll never have motivation to do things your heart and dreams are set on. Being yourself might not necessarily mean dying your hair all colours of the rainbow or wearing your makeup thick but perhaps it means singing on stage at the staples centre or becoming a world wide author or painting a picture worth millions of dollars or one you can simply hang on your wall and be proud of every time you pass it. So go, do that thing you and do it to your hearts content. Then name three things you love about yourself, because you NEED to love yourself.
Thank you.
