Am I invisible?
I mean I've got lots of friends but I still feel invisible. To be honest I just feel left out all the time, but I'm not that is the thing. I just feel sad, it's not like a I want to cry, sad, it's more of a depression sad like I'm alone all of the time. I just want to talk to someone but I either don't trust people or keep it all to myself. To be honest I keep a lot to myself. I just want a really good friend to talk to about my problems, worries and generally my life. But I don't think I'll ever find that, never in my life again.
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Ugh school is the worst all we do is learn about useless shit, it's so boring I could honestly sleep.
At this point a girl asked to sit next to me in my class but I just ignored her thinking that she would go away.
Well didn't I think wrong.
Just as she sat next to me the teacher announced that we have a partner assignment and we are working with the person that was sitting next to us so I had to work with the person that I don't even know. Thanks teachers.
Great, this is all I need a random girl to be my partner in a class that I hate. Do I have to speak to her? Probably not.
"hi, my name is grace and it looks like we are working together on this assignment "
Why am I always wrong about these things it's getting really annoying. I just ignored her.
"are you gonna answer?" she said
"maybe" I said back nervously because I'm Socially awkward and I don't want to say anything wrong.
"What you can talk?" she said back joking "so what is your name?"
Do I really have answer that? I probably have to now that she asked me.
"my name is Elly" I said quietly but she must have heard me because she said "that's a nice name" back. After a while of silence I asked "why are you sitting with me? "
She was thinking for a while but then finally said "I just felt like sitting here. have you got a problem with that?"
"no, I was just wondering " I instantly replied
Then the bell had to ring didn't it. We were working so well and I wanted to get to know Grace a bit more. I went to put my book in my bag and then looked back to see if she was still there but she wasn't there, she just disappeared, vanished into thin air. I thought I probably shouldn't worry about it but I could not stop thinking about her, I don't know why I couldn't stop thinking about her. It was so confusing how could she just disappear like that.
Later that day I saw her, so I walked up to her "where did you go after history?" she looked slightly confused but then she remembered "oh nowhere" she said shyly then turned around but the socially awkward person that I am I grabbed her hands and span her toward me and said "you can trust me I promise" wow aren't I just great I just meet her today and I've already grabbed her hand, good job round of applause to me.
"can we meet after school?" she asked really nervously
"yea sure, were are we going to meet?" I ask confused
"just out the front of the school, I have got to go to class now, see you after school" she says as she lets go of my hands.
I stand there confused over what just happened then I shrug my shoulders and walk to my next class.
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Five minutes till class ends, what does grace want to tell me? We only met today. Is it because I grabbed her hand. I'm still confused as to why she sat next to me in history. So many questions I think I'm going to explode or maybe I'm just over exaggerating it maybe she just wants to hang out.
