Baby I’m home.
After all this time, after all these months of working for other people
Helping people to be themselves
Finally I found a way to gain from it
From all the work I’ve done from everything I have suffered from
Understanding
A clear view
My past was intense
I have lived many lives already
In the same world
In the same body
How shall I ever explain this to someone else
Is this true spirituality?
I’m the one
The least religious, the least faithful
That finds such profound deepness within understanding life.
Am I seeing the broader world.
The world that is bigger than I can see?
The world of infinity
Of endless life
I was dead
Yet I’m still alive
I was old, I was sick
No one could help me
I was in a dark place
I went into the light
But I came back out
And I was stronger
And better than ever before
I learned, I understood
First my heart
And now after years my head
It’s that simple.
Yet how will I ever be able to be with someone who doesn’t understand me?
This one person needs to understand this
Understand me
And
what I am
what I have been
and
what I will be
But how understand it when it took me twenty one years to get it
It’s impossible to find faith and love in a human being to spend eternity with
I will be alone. Forever.
Is it possible that I am at peace with myself? Should I be ready to go now?
I am
I am ready
I can leave
Go to wherever I need to
I could leave this world
Pass onto another
Because I know there is more
I know I am not bound to my body or my life here
Is everything really so difficult?
No
I can just go and do whatever I want to
Is it so necessary to do what everyone wants me to do?
No
Just because I opened one door doesn’t mean I have to go through it
Who knows what else there is waiting for me
I can only discover it if I go
I am free
I don’t own anything
Not even my freedom
It’s been given to me
It’s what I will take
If I realize that
I only have to stretch out to get it
Yet I make such a great effort in complaining
It’s all about me and within me
Everything I need
Where does thinking happen?
It does not happen in my head
Where do answers come from?
They don’t come out of my head
"You have to free your thoughts in order to free your heart" (Jaimen McMillan)
