Musings

wow.txt 4-23-16

God Delusion

I believe I reached a state of clarity tonight staring into the artificial lake created by men to attract settlers to their development. A development which is essentially a tumor on mother nature. A development where snobby pricks run rampant in their gas guzzling vehicles to further rape the environment created to provide for them.

But what created the environment? Is this an ideal environment for some people? Yes, I believe so.

Which leads to the main idea; creation and existence.

I believe reality is subjective. This could be considered a fact. But what makes it a fact? Personal experience of other subjectively real people? Personal experience of the subjectively real me?

Who created my fingers to allow me to type these insane rantings onto my keyboard which sends signals to my computer which displays corresponding letters and furthermore sentences and furthermore paragraphs and furthermore stories or essays or novels.

I propose I am God.

But I also propose you are God.

I think we are only bound by limits we set for ourselves. We say, "No I totally can't jump across 27 buildings and live." But why not? What keeps us from this? If my crazy overproductive brain suggests that I am not real, that you reading this are not real then what defines real?

So say there is a higher deity, what is it? What is it's name, gender, age, blood type, etc.? Once again this is subjective.

You ask someone in modern Western civilization, they would likely answer, "God is the deity and I will go to heaven for worshiping him and obeying his laws." But then you ask someone in the Middle East, they likely reply, "Allah is lord, I will be rewarded for serving him in life." But who is right? you likely think my input on the correctness of these two people is something like, "Neither," or "They're both insane," but no. I believe they are both correct.

But I believe they are weak and misguided. Victims of organized religion and corruption. But what kind of corruption? What defines corruption?

Look at China for example. a predominantly atheist nation, they only recently abolished a law saying that only one child was to be permitted for a family. Otherwise, a fine would be owed. This resulted in many forced abortions and sterilizations carried out by the government. Is that corruption? The answer is debatable subjective.

Viewed from a religious standpoint, yes this is corrupt and wrong and unethical. Viewed from a position of worldly power this is seen as necessary to maintain a low population and healthy environment or something.

But in the Middle East where constant war and fighting and disputes occur in the name of religion. Is that corruption? You see the pattern. Think for yourself.

I believe that as people or as "gods" we are limitless. I believe we will never break physical limits because we were never told how to. We never showed it was possible. No one ever told us when we were young, "Yes jump off the roof, you will fly if you believe you can!" Because no one ever truly believed. I believe.

But what does it mean to believe? We say we believe in God, but we are afraid to die. I say I believe in myself but I cannot fly.

So this leads me to consciousness and unconsciousness. Awake and asleep. Living and dreaming.

Dreams are different. I say I have a dream where I slaughter hundreds and I interpret it as me overcoming something in the near future. But someone else interprets it as deep murderous fantasies. But who is right? Who is wrong? This time, I believe no one.

Something so open to interpretation such as dreams or artwork or music cannot be perfectly defined, correct? The phrase, "Your high is your high and my high is my high." This speaks levels about life and living. For example, multiple people rejoiced at the death of Hitler and viewed it as good and happy, but there still existed people that mourned his death and viewed it as sad.

Life truly is what you make it.

So in that sense you are God. But physical limitations once again.

I can't lift a bus correct? Correct.

But in an unconscious state of dreaming what limits exist? The limits I create.

I want to lift a bus? I can do it. I just need to be lucid.

Lucid. loo-sid. Adjective. Characterized by clear perception or understanding; rational or sane.

So by those definitions, lucid dreaming is awareness or understanding of dreaming correct?

What is lucid living? If I can overcome physical limitations in dreams by simply being aware that I am dreaming what keeps physical limitations on me while I'm awake? Presumably, I'm aware of the fact I'm alive surely. But is being alive being awake?

Meditate. me-de-tate. Intransitive verb: to engage in contemplation or reflection. Transitive verb: to plan or project in the mind.

Subjectively this definition (as all) are wrong. I believe meditation to be a state of clarity and tranquility. But not vanity.

People say that prayer is when you talk to God. But meditation is when God talks to you. Following what I stated previously, you're either talking to yourself or talking to yourself.

But say our brains and minds are separated, surface and deep. The surface being the things society, science and govvernment tells us to believe and then the deep mind being what is subconciously know by humankind. Perhaps thats what dreaming is. So prayer is is you consulting your surface mind and meditation is you consulting your inner knowledge.

Personally, meditation has always been in an effort to slow or empty my fast-paced mind. So an empty head is my idea of tranquility I think.

But by thinking of nothing aren't I thinking of something? Nothing is defined as no thing, lack of anything. But nothing has defintion and meaning. We can grasp the meaning of nothing correct?

Wrong, how can we contradict ourselves by giving something that is defined as "lack of anything" anything? Nothing should be the lack of things. Nothing should not exist. Nothing is impossible.