Juniper Grace.

part: sleep (25)

I felt my eyes drift close and I jerk them open trying to fight sleep. I hear Oliver chuckle at my drowsy state, and I become hyperaware at how I look tired. I also can feel my heart beating because he's sitting on the floor next to his bed and I have my head on his lap while he plays with my hair absentmindedly. I wondered if he's having trouble regulating his breathing and heart rate too.

Snap out of it Jun you guys used to have sleepovers plus why does it matter what he thinks, I say to myself as a harsh reminder not to get attached. I look around his room and see nothing new to look at since I've been here many more times than I can count also it's incredibly mundane in decoration. He has almost nothing on his beige walls and almost all of his clothing carpeting his floor. Also his ginormous dog Yosef takes up half his bed and is sleeping heavier than any dog probably is possible of.

I look up and meet his grey/blue eyes that have little green specks in them. Oli's hair which usually looks perfectly placed is messy and a few hairs fall into his face. He looks distracted by the task of playing with my above shoulder length hair. I wondered what time it was because I felt as if I'd been awake for days.

"What time is it?" I asked in my raspy sleepy voice.

"About 1:30 am" Oli says leaving a comfortable silence occasionally interrupted by the noise of summer bugs outside.

"Just so you know, I'm super jealous that you manage to look super attractive while tired," He says as if he thinks it won't make my heart explode. By now I wonder if I'm able to say I'm "not attached" confidently.

"Oli, I hope you're talking to Yosef, because I am not cute when half asleep," He just shakes his head and laughs to himself. I look over at his dog that is mostly black except for the grey hair on his muzzle.

I felt my eyes drift close again and I can feel his eyes on me along with his pounding heart. If I weren't so tired I'd make a mean joke about it but then as I almost open my eyes to say it he kisses my forehead. My heart does a little happy dance while i try to fake be asleep. After a few minutes I can tell he fell asleep by his deep, steady breathing.

I become certain that I like him in this moment. At this realization I open my eyes and look up at his closed ones that match his slight smirk. I was getting way too attached way too early, and I was scared. He wouldn't hurt you Jun I said to myself until I fell asleep in his arms.
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Okay well hey there i'm jane and im basically writing this based on something i'm experiencing so you'll be able to tell if it goes bad because then there will be a very sad chapter. lol just kidding this isn't really based on me it's just things that I, as a hopeless romantic, would love to go through. Also i don't really read the authors note so idk what to write in it. So hey sorry if it's a little too jumpy but i'm just seeing if i like this style better