Gun me down

R.I.P

Hey everyone.
I'm sorry if you get this notification or message more than once there are just this people who follow one story and won't get it if I just post it on another they aren't following so, yeah.
I'm writing to say that, I'm so sorry for no update but everything right now has gone to absolute s&@£.
This month...is the month of which my mother's birthday before she had passed away due to cancer. And it hurts. It hurts knowing that just a few years after she did go, my sister walked out on me too and left me with my dad and two other elder brothers. I had no other female member living in that house and as many miracles as my dad and brothers perform they are never going to understand me and my problems fully because I am a woman and they are men, straight up. They just can't understand because they've never been through it.
So yes. There has been no updates but I've been trying so so hard to get myself out of this bloody rut I'm in but I'm stuck. Just clawing at the walls and sides to get out. AFP don't for that, I'm not sorry for not updating. I'm trying my best to get myself better and if you want to believe that I should put you guys before my own personal health then leave. Right now just leave because if you do I do not want you here.
Thanks guys and girls.
Izziie.