If this is redemption,
Why do I bother at all?
Stil, I'd rather be working for something than praying for the rain.
So I wander on, until somebody else is saved.
I moved to the coast,
Under a mountain,
Swam in the ocean,
I slept on my own.
At dawn,
I'd watch the sun cut ribbons through the bay.
And I'd cut knifes in my arms.
I'd remember all the things my mother told me,
We don't eat until my father comes back.
But I know inside, that he won't.
We won't drink until he's turned my Devils to dust.
But my Devils don't sleep under my bed,
They sleep in my head.
Never once has any man I've met, been able to love.
So if I were you, sweetheart... I'd have little trust.
Two thousand years, I've been in that water.
Two thousand years, I sunk like a stone.
Desperately reaching for nets,
That the fisherman had thrown.
Trying to find a little bit of hope.
Me?
I was holding all my secrets back,
Soft and hid.
Pages were folded,
And I had nothing at all.
So if in the future, if I need myself a saviour,
I'll remember what was written on the wall..
That we don't eat until my father's at the table.
We don't drink until he's turned the Devils in my head to... Dust.
Never once had any man I've met ever Trully loved,
So if I were you, darling, I'd have very little trust.
I am an honest girl, it's true.
But have I been good to you all?
I know I haven't, because I'm not perfect.
I've made mistakes, mistakes don't make me.
Oh, I'm so tired of all these... Games.
We'd just be running down,
The same old lines,
The same old story of a breathless train,
Or a beautiful, yet worn house burning to dust.
Words turn out.. Go be my own.
I never ate, because my father left the table.
I barely drank because my Devils never turned to dust.
Never once has my Father been able to love....
So if you are my friend, I'd learn to have just a little bit of trust.
