Never Been...
(sweetdeesiire)
I have never been in love.
I was scared.
Scared of a broken heart.
Scared that I would feel what my friends felt.
(I know, stupid, right?)
Another reason is I don’t believe in myself.
It never occurred to me that SOMEONE could ever love ME.
Because I know no one would.
Why would someone love a girl who is NOT Miranda Kerr hot, NOT beautiful like Emma Watson and NOT as witty as Jennifer Lawrence?
Who would love a girl who’s FAT, UGLY, BORING and INSECURE?
NO ONE.
But when a guy approached me,
He asked if he can know me better,
He communicated with me
And he even praised me.
He said I was beautiful,
He said he likes me,
He said he wants to meet me,
He said he LOVES me.
Yes, he said those three little words,
I’ve never heard that from anyone saying that to me before.
I felt appreciated.
I feel loved.
As a girl who’s never been in love,
I believed he was true.
I believed every word he said.
I believed him.
No, I didn’t said it back, yet.
I still had doubts though.
Remember? I am insecure.
I can’t tell if he was just playing.
I was scared.
Scared that if I let go of my feelings,
I’m gonna end up being laughed at.
I don’t want that, not again.
I just said thank you after he said those three little words.
He asked if I could be his and he could be mine.
I was speechless.
All I can think about was
“This year will I have a valentine?”
Though, I said I am not ready.
I said I still don’t want to commit.
I said I want to know him better.
He said he understands.
Then, recently, someone told me that he has a girl.
Yes, another girl.
Another girl who’s more beautiful than me.
And now all I can think of is
“I can’t compete with that.”
Now, I don’t communicate with him.
Now, he doesn’t communicate with me.
How sad, I don’t know what to do.
What can I do?
All there’s left is a girl who’s never been in love.
A girl who felt more insecure about herself.
A girl who wears her smile just to hide the pain.
A girl who can cry to no one,
But cry herself to sleep.
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Never Been...
RomanceI don't know what this is, a short story, a poetry? I don't know. All I know is this is real.
