Even Best Friends Hide Things

He Confessed Something

    I am so angry and sad right now! Jordan confessed that he was gay to me today! I ran home and cried until my mum got home. I couldn't take it, I want Jordan so bad but I can't have him! It's not fair he told me who Cat was today though.
    Cat is one of Jordans best friends. Cat is Kade, MY BROTHER! I can't believe he is in love with Kade! Jordan is really in love with him. I should have told him when I had the chance but I couldn't. I got so nervous around him. It does explain why Jordan always blushed around him though.
    I just really love Jordan but I do want him to be happy. I can't tell Jordan to like me anyways. It's his choice if I wants to be with Kade he can. As my mum says "There are plenty of fish in the sea". She is right but how am I going to find someone better than Jordan. He was always so romantic and sweet. I just can't get over him.
    I am just so sad. I want Jordan so much! He can't be mine though. He's already came out to me and his parents. They accepted him which I thought was so sweet and caring. I love him and his parents.
    I'm just glad that we're even friends. We wouldn't have been if I didn't stand up for him. We were in 6th grade and people were pushing him around and I punched the bully. Sure I got suspended but it was to help him. He wanted to re-pay me, I didn't let him. It would be to mean to take it, I did ask him to be friends though. And of course he said yes.
    He is just so sweet and caring to let go of him. I want to be mad but I can't. I just love him to much to stay mad at him. My heart broken into a million pieces when he came out to me. I've got all 999,999 pieces but he has the one piece I need to stay alive. It's like he's my king, I love him so much!
    I want him to be happy, I really do. I just don't want him to ask Kade out. Kade is Bi so he could say yes and he could say no. I told Kade how much I love him and he knows. He did tell me that he kind of liked Jordan and I cried. Oh Kade please say no.