I'll be here... Forever. A Demi Lovato fanfiction.

Contradiction

- Demis POV-

 We got off the plane we ran so fast through the airport terminal until I saw my momma who was talking to Eddie until I jumped into both of their arms. I loved them both so dearly. I couldn't be happier with my family. Ashley gave them hugs and her and my mom started kicking it off, the usual they get along so well I couldn't be more thankful. I missed this, I missed home. I missed the safety it brought me. 

 After we pulled up in front the house Madison is already outside to greet me. I hopped out the car before it stopped I cant help it. I picked Madison up and spun her around, my baby girl. After Ashley got out she smiled at me because she knows how much family means to me, she knows how much I needed this, God I love her, I'm so lucky. Everyone said their hellos and we raced inside the house. Ash and me went upstairs and put our stuff away, she didn’t say much. I know she’s worried about me but I don’t know if she should be. 

"Hey, you. I can feel you overthinking." I said gently. She looked up, didn’t say anything - smiled and went back to unpacking.  "No way, you aren’t ignoring me,"  I added as I moved closer to her. 

She dropped the stuff and looked at me, "I'm not ignoring you, Demi. I'm trying to understand you. You're so distant. We exchanged probably like 10 words on the plane and I'm - I'm just worried about you." 

I just looked at her blankly. Worried about me? Does she know? Am I being that obvious with the eating again? She shouldn't know, I shouldn't even be doing it, I just don’t know what to do. I'm so overwhelmed. 

"See this is what I mean, you're not even answering me. Demi jus talk to me, please. Just talk to me. Whats going on?" She said with one of her hands on her hip and the other rested on the dresser.  She knows. She fucking knows. 

Before I could catch myself I started tearing up and she ran to me and held me so close to her. How could I be so foolish, who was I kidding, Im such a fuck up. 

"Baby, it's okay. Talk to me. Please. I love you." She says interrupting my thoughts. She’s so close I can feel her speaking into my ear but I've never felt farther from anyone or anything. I cant keep this up. 

"Im having a hard time..." I try getting out but it doesn’t seem to be working. She knows she talks to much so she just looks at me with those eyes and waits for me to continue talking. I plant a soft kiss on her beautiful lips and continue.  "Im having a hard time with the eating thing." And there it is, that look on her face, that look I was trying so hard to get away from. “Don't look at me like that." Now she’s the one who’s being quiet. She just looks at me with eyes full of worry I cant take it. I push her off. "Stop that right now." 

I go to walk out the door but she chases after and closes the door before I can get out and stands in front of it guarding me from leaving. "I should've known." I go to tell her its okay but she keeps going "I'm sorry I haven’t been there. I know you’ve been under so much pressure and you’re dealing with a lot. Its okay though. You aren’t alone. Look where we are Demi, I did this for you, we all did this for you. You aren’t dealing with it by yourself anymore. I'm here for you, you know that. You even have your millions upon millions of lovatics. Why dint you just talk to me?" 

I gulp, hard, because she’s right. I know they care and they’re here but when bad stuff happens my instinct is to just go back to old habits. But I don’t need too. I have people here who care. "I was being impulsive. I didn’t want to deal with feelings anymore. I just - wasn’t thinking. But you’re right. Im not alone. Im not the same girl I was before. Im better than that. Im sorry Ash, I love you." 

I press my body against hers and feel her hands hold my waist, tight. She kisses my forehead and I look up at her. "I don't know what I'd do without you." I whisper into her chest. 

"Im not going anywhere." She slips out so effortlessly I know  she means it, she’s been here through thick and think I know this is the one. I kiss her and she kisses back and I feel like in this moment nothing could ever hurt me again. I feel ready to fight my demons. I have her, I have my family and my lovatics, I have people I'm inspiring. I cant give up on that. They all mean too much too me. 

We both pull away and she looks at me and says "Come on, your family awaits. You both need each other."  I smile at her and go look in the mirror to fix my makeup so I don't look like Ive been crying.  

"You look beautiful." she says so genuinely my heart melts.

I grab her hand and kiss it as we make our way down the stairs and are greeted with everyone in the kitchen. Moms on the phone as I make my way to Madison to ask her about school and friends, theres nothing like sister time. I promised myself Id always be there for her so shed never have to go through what I did. 

Mom hangs up and walks over slowly and says "They found Dallas. She's okay, a little bruised up. They’re taking her to the hospital now, we should go." 

My jaw drops in surprise, I totally let my mind slip of Dallas, I've been so selfish on my own problems but theres a huge thing going on. I move with Ashley as she holds my hand tight and she doesn't let it go, thank god I don't know what Id do if she let go. Were all in the car in 5 minutes except Mom says she cant drive she's too shaky and she's scared, so is Eddie and me. 

Before I can say anything Ashley takes my moms hand and says "Dianna its okay I'll drive." And we switch seats so I'm sitting in the front with her and I smile softly at her. "You're the best girlfriend in the world." I say to her as she pulls out the driveway. I take a deep breathe as I know I have no idea what in the world to except of this.