Motivation (justin bieber)

- PROLOGUE -

Please don't leave me.

No one cares , every one hates me .. So why can't I hate myself . As I sat on the cold bloody floor , arms dripping with blood heart racing , I could tell that i went to far .

What will Justin think if he finds out that I relapsed .. ? I better not tell him .

As the cold metal kissed my skin I started crying . Who cares if i just ended it right now .. It's not like anyone would even come to my funeral and if they did they would just come to laugh and say how happy they're that Iam gone.

As I was about to push the metal harder, deeper in my skin I heard knocking on my front door . It was Justin , he must have known something was wrong because I wasn't replying to his messages.

"Megan?! " "Megan?!" Are you home? Please open the door , please .. I need to know if you're okay . I need.. I need to know if you didn't break our promise... Please open the door.."

I could tell he was upset and worried by the shakiness in his voice . What am I gonna do.. I can't open the door if I do he will see my wrist . But I just can't leave him out there heartbroken.

As I was about to get up and open the door I heard a door open from the back of my house , it was justin he must have brought his key I gave him . As I tried to clean up the dark red blood off of my cut wrist I could hear him making his way to the bathroom ,he's gonna be so hurt if he sees me like this !.. I tried getting up but I slipped on the puddle of blood that was left from the terrible mess I had did .

I struggled to push myself up , but then suddenly Justin dashed through the door

"Me..ga..n.. What have you done?!! Babe.. Why didn't you tell me you were depressed again!? "

Justin ran over to my cold bloody body , he was starting to cry now .

I'm ..I'm so so sorry Justin .. I just couldn't do it anymore ..everything was just to muc.. as I was about to finish my sentence Justin through his lips against mine.

"Promise me right now .. that you will Never ever do this again !.. please megan... Please you mean the world to me .. I don't know what I would do without you , please don't leave .. Never leave .. I need you".

-chapter 1-

The first word

"Megan you really should try and go out with some people sometimes ". Erin said to me as I sat on the couch heartbroken .

How can I do that when I know Noeone can compare to Justin .. He's my Everything Erin , you should know that by now .

I know , I know he's your "Everything" but one of these days you will have to Face the fact that what you and Justin had is over now ". I knew what Erin was saying was true, how could I really expect Justin to come back to me after everything I put him through.

'You know what Erin maybe you're right , Let's go and find me a man!'

As we drove Down the road to the beach i started to feel better , maybe getting out is the best thing for me to do to get over justin. As I starred out the window I started to remember the time when Justin took me to the Bahamas with him and his family ,I still can remember how happy he was that day that he could finally go to the Bahamas . Oh how I miss him .. i could feel the depression starting to sink into me again.. 'Why did I have to go and ruin everything that me and him had on that dreadful night'.

As we kept driving down the dirty gravel road I put my head against the window and fell into a deep sleep . Once I awoke I realized we were at the beach and that Erin have left a note on the car steeling wheel , so I reached out and grabbed the tiny little sticky note , as I read out loud "Megan you seemed very tired so I decided to let you sleep , if you need me I'll be walking down at the south side of the beach , Go find ya self a man ! Xoxo erin " .