still sane // a.i

february 11th 2011

feb 11th 2011

Nothing but the truth. That's what I promised myself when I started writing to you Ashton. In all these letters, not a single one contain a lie.

It's cold outside. Not snowy cold, but rather windy cold. The weather I've always hated, you know that. I wouldn't be that crazy to go outside. I'm sitting here writing this to you.

I've missed you. Your voice still echoes in my head, the last thing you said to me still bouncing off my head.

" Goodbye. "

I was stunned. Goodbye? Goodbye to what? I couldn't process, my brain was muddled with thoughts of what I'd be losing.

You. I'd be losing you. And I can't do that. They say if you love someone or something, let it go. But that's not the case. If I let you go, I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

When you came into my life, you sorted me out. I was a mess, I didn't know what to do with life. I couldn't seem to grasp onto the concept that the world was dark.

But thats where you come in. You shed light on my world. You cleaned up the cluttered mess that was me and you made sure I never went back to my old ways.

So what did you mean by,

" Goodbye.''

N-no. Don't say goodbye to me. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.

Love,

Rose