Suicidal

Not as expected..

Next Day (Santana's POV)

Today is the only day that i don't wake up feeling like shit about going to school because my best friend Sam is gonna be there, my crush Brittany is gonna be around, and Rachel is finally not being annoying as much as before, thank god my life is Changing.

I hurried and got ready for school so i can head out and give Sam a tour around the school, hopefully Brittany would still talk to me.

I head out leaving my mother speechless since i wasn't arguing with her about not let me go to school but now this year is my year.

15 MINUTES LATER (AT SCHOOL)

I walked into school not scared to walk into the building but than my confidence went away when Quinn started walking towards me looking pissed, i took a deep breath trying to ignore the fact she's there, instead she grabbed my shoulder and slammed me against the lockers.

"Where's the Blonde Lopez" she asked me finally getting my last name correctly and not calling me, "Lezpez".

"I don't k-know.." i stuttered

"Don't make me make you bleed again" she said grabbing my arm tightly

"HEY!" I turned and i see Brittany wearing a leather jacket and shorts, why are you so fucking hot Pierce?

"There you are" Quinn let me go giving Brittany all of her attention

"Leave her the fuck alone" Britt Said walking towards Quinn face to face

Quinn waited a couple seconds mad dogging Brittany as Brittany is doing the same, than Quinn smirked and walked away looking impressed by Brittany's actions leaving me and Britt confused.

Britt got over it and looked towards me, i knew i blushed when her blue eyes hit me, i gulped when she started walking towards me.

"Hey.. you okay?" She said with a very soft, worried voice leaving me red.

"Yeah.. I'm fine" i said with a raspy voice, looking through her ocean blue eyes.

She smiled, "good, if she ever fucks with you again tell me" i lost it when she said that, i wonder how over protective she would be if i was her girlfriend?.. no Santana, its never gonna happen.. your a girl with a dick, there's no way in hell she'll accept that.

Than i hear footsteps walking our way but i didn't even bother looking i just continued
staring at Brittany's eyes

"Hey San" a familiar voice said, i turned and i see Sam staring completely shocked at Brittany

Britt looked back at Sam looking at him up to down and smiled, Sam smirked at Britt's actions, than i noticed what was going on, no.. this can't be happening.. i felt my heart starting to ache.

"So San.. are you gonna tell me who's this beautiful blonde?" He smiled leaning against the lockers, i was completely speechless.. there is no way in hell im gonna be able to get Britt now even though i was doubting it this whole time but not gonna lie, i had a little hope in me and Brittany being together until Sam showed up.

I thought having Sam and Britt around was gonna be great for me until everything just turned their backs on me

I didn't say anything, i couldn't say anything. Thinking about Sam and Britt together hurt me. They would be perfect together and i would hate to see them together but than again i don't want to lose them