Coming Out To Love

What should i say? Everyone is gay!

So, I decided to write down some shit that's on my mind. Life is changing a lot. I finally broke up with my girlfriend. I don't know why but I just wasn't even close to be attracted to her. It's weird a lot of my girlfriends are like that, just girls who asked me out that I only went out with cause their good looking. I guess I need to find that special one...if it ever comes. School today was just dreadful, so fucking boring, all my friends suck they're so...plain. Everyone else is just like them, their boring stupid kids who don't even know who the last president was. I seem to be only person who actually gives a fuck about my future. The seniors of school are never there cause they work.

But I always ask myself, why don't I just give up and be plain like everyone else? Why do I have to be that one kid who can't stick with social norms and just go with it. I just can't though, I couldn't bring myself to do this type of shit. Everyone likes trap music and doing shit that would cause people to go to jail, I don't even have a slightest need to do any of that.

So I guess this journal is gonna Turn me into a fag, init? I hope nobody reads this shit. If anyone sees this the first thing their gonna think of is "oh this fag is writing in his diary!" God I hate people. I'm no good guy myself though, I do have to admit that. Yesterday a group of girls said they don't fuck with me because I smoke, shits stupid right? I mean I can understand them not wanting me to be smoking near them but to base my whole personality on that is fucking retarded.

So this is day one of...however many pages this book has. To be honest I felt pretty good to write something like this. Getting this shit off my mind is surprisingly uplifting.