After my parents died, I had no emotion. I never felt happy or loved. That part of me had disappeared. Not because it gave up on me but because I gave up on it. I gave up on ever feeling something ever again. I gave up on myself. That day at therapy made me feel anger and rage for Delila. I felt something. Something had changed inside of me and it felt...normal. Over the years I had grown to accept the fact that death is my only chance to be free of this feeling but I never tried to take my own life. Because believed I wouldn't feel the sense of freedom.
Sally's hug made me feel great, for a moment. I didn't want to let go but there comes a time in everyone's life where you must let go. "Now, go and get ready, we are going somewhere" Sally then turned on her heel and walled away. I sighed at the thought of going outside. Its been so long and Sally thinks today I am just gonna turn everything around and be normal again. I looked around me. The whole house was a mess, dishes stacked in the sink and rubbish everywhere. All these years I only came out of my room to... Well actually I didnt come out of my room for anything. "Cmon hun" I looked at Sally in confusion, she was serious? "Where are we going?" "You'll see" I sighed at the thought of it. What does she expect from me? A miracle? I pulled my long blonde, knotty hair into a loose pony and looked down at my feet. They were so bony and skinny. I walked into my room to get shoes and looked around. My room was so gloomy, everything about life was so sad and depressing. I only had memories of this room. I remember nothing about the rest of the world besides my parents. Tears formed in my eyes at the thought of my parents. I didnt cry, I never cry, tears formed, thats all.
The car ride felt like forever. Sally didnt say a word about where we were going, all she did was tap her fingers on the steering wheel and sigh every so often about the traffic. I kept my head low and stared at my lap the whole way there. We finally arrived at... Well I wasn't quite sure where we were. It was a deserted street and every building was identical. They all had crumbling walls, no windows, concrete, all except for one. There was one that stood out, well to me at least. It just seemed familiar. I stepped out of the car and took a breath of fresh, well maybe not so fresh, air. "Shall we?" Sally had the biggest grin on her face. I shrugged my shoulders and headed inside. Little did I know my whole life would change for the better.
