Forgotten

My mind takes me back to the day he took me to the beach. His smile was endless. Nothing would take that away. He had a glow to him. That was the day he told me he loved me.

"Babe BABE check this out" Justin looks at me, incredibly facinated as to what he's about to do. He runs in front of me, flipping twice in a row. After he fixes himself, he grabs me by the waist, kissing me gently. I instantly fall back as he catches me, holding me as I'm bent back.

"mmmmmmmmmmm", he growls onto my mouth as I giggle uncontrollably. I slide my arms around his neck as he pulls me back up. Pulling his head into my neck, he places small, gentle kisses onto my neck, mumbling, "I loveeee you"

"I love you too, Justin." My smile will not go away. It was the first time he told me he loved me. My emotions were going crazy. I love him. With every ounce of me. He's the best I could ask for.

He grabs my hands, holding them, intertwining our fingers. Stepping forward, he twirls me around, "Did you think I was done kissing you yet, baby?" I squeal in laughter as he presses his lips firmly against mine. His lips hit mine over and over again. I can't breathe I'm laughing so hard. He pulls away, squeezing my waist. He grabs my hand again, running me towards the water.

"Justin don't you dare", I continue to pull myself away from him. Finally letting go of his grip, I run quickly away from him. I'm almost out of breath from laughing so hard. I turn back to see that he has already caught up. As soon as his hands grip onto my waist, I am in his arms. He picks me up, and I can't stop wiggling my legs. I'm laughing so hard. It's so hard to breathe. He throws me over his shoulder. I could hear his laugh. It's a melody I wished I could hear every single moment. As soon as I realize what is going on, he is walking me into the water, throwing me down into the water while still holding me. He leans in quickly to stop me from screaming. I whimper from the cold water hitting my back. I can't stop laughing against his lips.

"JUSTIN STOP!!!!!" He smirks, laughing a bit, tickling my waist, causing me to fall back into the water. He leans his head back laughing.

"Baby, Why did you fall?" His laugh is becoming uncontrollable. I can't help but love the sound of it. I lean up, clinging onto his neck.

"Because you tickled me!!!" He smiles, tucking his head in my neck. "I love you though baby...forgive me?"

I play with his wet hair, holding onto him, smiling, "I love you."

I feel myself smiling even bigger, thinking of all of the summer I spent with Justin. It was more than incredible. I had the time of my life with him. He gave me everything I could have asked for and more.

We ended up enrolling into our senior year together. We have every single class together. Physics, Calc, Gym, Sociology, and American History. We had every intention to spend the year together. After he took my virginity July 9th...We've been attached to the hip.

"I'm so in love with you, Audrey." My emotions are going wild. I can't breathe. He loves me. He knows how much I love him. It's the right time.

His hands reach down to my jeans. I lift my body up so he can slide them down. As soon as he gets them off, his hands run to my hips, sliding them up to my bra. He leaves small gentle kisses on my neck. His tongue against my neck feels electrifying. Every kiss feels amazing. I am hypnotized by his touch.

I slide his shirt from over his head. He looks down at me. His eyes are dark. He carresses my hips. "Are you sure...?" He looks down at me sternly. I look into his hungry eyes, biting my lip, nodding. He growns, "FUCK don't do that Audrey."

I smile, knowing that he loves when I bite my lip, "do what..."

He leans down, kissing me passionately, pulling my lip, smirking as he pulls away, "That.."

I can't help myself. I lean up, grabbing the back of his hair, kissing him passionately. My tongue massages against his until he pulls away, kissing the back of my ear, sucking slowly. His hand moves slowly down my stomach, and he snaps my underwear. I whimper, needing him more than ever. He slides his hand down into my underwear, slowly sliding a finger into me, pumping in and out.

"I love you" He whispers as I moan.

"You're so beautiful.." He continues.

I grip into his hair. "I need you.." He nibbles at my ear.

"I'm yours...", I keep my eyes closed, moaning softly.

He nods, "I know baby..." He slides down his boxers, taking my panties off.

"Are you sure...baby I just..I love you. I can't hurt you.. "

I nod, needing him. I need all of him.

He leans down, pushing into me. I grip into his hair, feeling pain.

"Ahh..." He leans down, whispering, "I love you so much..." He kisses me, to distract me from the pain. I realize the more and more he goes on, the better I feel. His moans fill the room, as he pushes in and out.

"Fuck Justin!" The pleasure begins to build up. He pushes a bit faster, causing us to both release at the same time. He falls ontop of me, breathing heavily, rubbing my waist. He whispers into my ear, "All mine.."

From that day on, I've been his. He's been mine. Nothing could possibly take that away. He needs me. I need him. I just know it.

"I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE AUDREY. IT'S NOT WORKING!" He screams to me as we're in my front yard.

The tears fall from my cheeks, "JUSTIN DON'T DO THIS. YOU KNOW YOU NEED ME!!"

He shakes his head, his voice calming down, "Audrey...I just don't love you anymore. I just..don't."

The words slice through me like a knife.

"NO..No. NO!! You know you love me.." I walk towards him, desperate, "You need me. You know it. Baby you're confused. PLEASE don't do this. Don't! You're just mad...You don't mean it."

He sighs loudly, "I FUCKING DO! Stop pushing this on me, Audrey. We're done. I can't keep doing this with you. This back and forth. I don't love you anymore. It's done."

He walks towards his car, I run to him, grabbing his arm. "JUSTIN...Please.." I look up at him, as he doesn't even look at me. He yanks his arm away, getting in his car, driving off.

I fell to the floor, crying hysterically. He's gone. He's not coming back.

I find myself walking into school alone. That was two weeks ago, and I haven't seen him since. I've texted him over and over again and he wants nothing to do with me. Was I not enough? Did he ever love me? These questions go through my mind every single day.

I look down at my sheet of paper, looking at the locker number. D750. I recognize that I am in the C section, so I walk down the next hallway over. I turn my head to see Justin and his friends surrounding him. There is a new girl he has his arm around. He kisses her cheek, rubbing her waist. He leans over to whisper something in her ear. She laughs really loud.

Ryan taps Justin's shoulder to point to me. Justin looks up to make eye contact with me, then he turns to Ryan. I can vaguely hear, "I don't give a fuck bro. She can look if she wants."

I turn my head to the ground, walking right past him, ignoring the fact that I need my books.

He no longer needs me. He's found her. Nothing could have killed me anymore.