Imagine a warm fuzzy feeling.. its all good and you feel amazing, but for me its different, its the struggle to keep tears from falling down my face and soaking me in warm, salty, raindrops.
At school i received the news of my mothers passing, then and there i had fell onto the ground in tears, everyone had been crowded around me. Coldest of eyes making me shiver and shake, i look like i had a heart attack, never less attempting to be melodramatic.
. The thoughts of never seeing my mother again. It kept me up all night aside from my fathers screaming, always telling me that i look like my mother, that i cant be around him. Maybe thats why he will be sending me away from home. To his ex-girlfriends apartment. He fell into drugs which was the hardest thing to ever see aside from my mothers death. It was the first time i ever saw him cry.
My FlashBack Ends
I move aside my moving box to open up my mothers old box of jewelry. I Pulled out a necklace it had a cross on it, i have always remembered Her cross necklace was her favorite. She wore it everywhere yes everywhere. the only time she has never worn it was when she was in water. It was a piece of her, now it can be a piece of me. I slowly slide the necklace over my head and put it under my baggy Falcons t-shirt.
As i look in the mirror i see a blonde girl, she's absolutely gorgeous. At the moment i was completely terrified if it was a ghost or a demon but this girl seemed too pure, too happy, too real. I reach to touch her and she steps out of the mirror.
"Hi, i'm Emily." She says with a loving smile.
I-im, Olivia. i say worried.
"Yes, i know Livy! i know all about you." She says with a pleasurable smile
schizophrenia. a cold force whispers into my ears.
My mother only calls me Livy. I say.
"I know, i thought you could use some cheering up.' She says in a delighted tone.
I look over at Emily's eyes as she lays on my bed playing with my cat. i giggled and look over at Emily playing with the cat and meowing. I realize how superficial and stereotypical it would be to call her a dumb blonde.
" I love you so much Mr.Mittens" She says it in a very 'awe" tone of voice.
Yes, how do you know his name? i say.
"Remember i know everything about you!" she said with a giggle.
I still question how the heck she knows my cats name.
She is continuously playing with my cat and i am kind of worried for my cats health it might be diagnosed with dumb cat disorder after Emily is done harassing it.
I scanned Emily's outfit its absolutely gorgeous and i'm so jealous.
"You like what you see? Its my new designer outfit" Emily says
I didn't know ghosts had a mall. Weird.
"I can read your mind" Emily says
Dang.
"I heard that too! By the way i'm not harassing your cat. Mr.Mittens loves me!" She exclaims with wicked smile.
How does this lady always be happy cause like i think she's a robot or like a clone! Another Shane Dawson conspiracy theory!
"Im not a robot, i am supposed to always be happy so you can be happy. Kinda like the movie inside out but i'm like your magical genie with no wishes." Emily says in a not so serious tone.
Once again i scan Emily's outfit with even more envy
she's wearing a peachy pink dress with a extremely chic necklace. Her skin tone seriously makes it work.
Jealous much, Olivia Jealous much. i say to myself.
After Emily see's i scanned her outfit she takes a quick peek at mine and sighs.
Oh no, here comes a tsunami of insults.
She told me my outfit was rachet, i did reply and continuously told her it was my pajamas but she never listened. I strongly believe she is a drama queen. But if she is a figment of my imagination she could give me a good out fit.
"Hunny, let me help you with that outfit. I don't believe trashcan is a good look for you." She says with a disgusted look.
I love my falcons t-shirt though. i tell her.
"Well wear it when your at a football game with a cute pair of stilettos and a black skirt." She exclaimed in a not so pleased tone. Wow there went your giddiness. Then she quickly snaps her fingers and i end up in this absolutely gorgeous outfit. (below)
"Now we can both twin in pink dresses OMG TWINSIES!!!" Emily exclaims in a seriously happy tone. Once again (another sigh)
But no one will be able to see you..? iIquestion.
"Yes they can, because i can be presentable when i want to. So basically i can say i'm your hotter older sister!" She says in a cocky tone.
When she says sisters it makes me think of family, and family makes me think of mom. I start getting the salty warm eyes again and fall onto my bed and manage to cry and whimper at the same time. Who knew that was manageable?
Emily of course rushes over and cuddles up to me wraps her arms around me and constantly says sorry and everything is going to be okay.
Of course she knows it wont be, but she's only trying to help. I probably shouldn't be trusting someone i just met but she seems extremely trustable. Plus she's not even real.
After she's done cooing me like a 4 month year old baby we both eventually fall asleep on my bed.
(Emily below)
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A friend in My Mind
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