I'm going to tell you something I have never told anybody I cut myself because my dad left me when I was little and he would come in and out of my life whenever he felt like it it hurt but never show the pain I just pushed it down but then something really bad happened to me and I couldn't take it no more so I started cutting myself it releases the pain everybody that I knows started to call me a hoe and stuff like that but I'm not it's just they don't know the true story I have tried to tell people the real stories but when I do they never went to listen so I just gave up on trying to tell people and I keep it to myself but it hurts so much a couple weeks ago I lost someone I cared about and the thing with me is I don't care about a lot of people I don't think of people as my family or friends but this person she meant so much to me she was my family and if I ever told her anything she would never judge me she was the one person I knew that cared about me now I'm so depressed I don't know what to do with myself but I know if I cut myself because of her death she would be so disappointed in me but it is so hard not to cut myself because that's all I have ever done whenever I was depressed or sad anything like that
Now that she's gone I feel alone again I know that she's looking down at me so I'm not completely alone it's just I don't get to see her. her smile would like anybody's day up she loved everybody and cared about everybody no matter who the person was you could be the baddest person in the world but she would still see the good in you
Rest in peace janel love you with all my heart ❤❤❤❤❤
