The Beginning of Everything
All I could hear was the sirens blaring and the soft, sharp intake of air from my mother. People tried to drag her away from the horrific sight, but she kept screaming. Saying she couldn't give up on me. I already gave up on me. She gave up two years ago. Drinking away her problems when my father began to abuse me physically, mentally, and sexually. Every single day she saw my bruises, and my dull, lifeless eyes. She just didn't see me. I wish she would. Not until now.
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2 Months Earlier
"Come on. Eat something Lily," My boyfriend Andy pleaded.
I looked at the piece of pizza he was holding out. It looked so delicious. I wanted to puke just looking at it. I shook my head, feeling my brain jiggle. He sighed and tossed it back into the box. Tears welled into my eyes. I hated to disappoint him.
"Hey... look at me," Andy pleaded, his voice soft. I felt him take my hands gently and interlock them. I looked at them realizes how perfectly mine fit into his and how I wanted him to be mine forever. When he first asked me out, I didn't believe that he wanted to be with me. After weeks and weeks of dinner dates, and carnivals I finally gave in. I love him alot.
"Lily...," His voice echoed in my ears as he lifted my chin up.
An unexpected tear ran down my cheek, "Yeah?"
Andy wiped away my tears and smiled. His eyes looked so sad. Why was I hurting him like this? My eyes darted to the small, thin piece of pizza crust. 190 calories full going down my throat. Scratching and crawling to get out. My hands twitched and moved forward an inch. Just a tiny bite. No, I couldn't eat it. My lips trembled as I looked back at his sad face. I gave a weak smile as he picked up the remote and turned on Fast and Furious. With a soft sigh he leaned back and kept his eyes on the T.V. I carefully picked myself up and sat in his lap. He looked at me with amusement, his sadness fading already. I kissed him as an apology. Apologizing for not being enough.
"I don't love you any less," He whispered as he kissed me back.
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"Lily! Did you hear my question?"
I jolted awake, my eyes heavy, "Sorry?"
"I asked you a question." Mrs.Johnson said, her face red, "The MMR vaccine protects against measles. What two other diseases does it protect against?"
I opened my mouth, prepared to give my answer. A snort came from the corner and my mind went blank.
"Well it seems that someone didn't do her homework last night," He sneered, "Detention Ms. Porter."
Tears welled up in my eyes and my ears blocked out the loud laughter ringing in my ears.
You're a nobody.
Why are you even here?
It would just be best to end your life now.
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