recap: Justin and Raegan are now dating. Justin still has cancer and Justin lives in Maryland
{Raegan pov}
I'm so happy me and Justin are together. I'm so happy with him, I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend.
{Justin pov}
I'm so happy me and Raegan are finally together, I love him so much. Today I have a doctors appointment to see if the cancer is going away. If it is I should be fully cured in 6 months. If not, well, theres that 27%. They say its a fifty-fifty chance. I hope it goes well, Raegans coming so I feel safer and more scared. What if its not getting better, will Raegan leave me? I need to stop thinking, I put my earbuds in and drown myself in music. When I listen to music, its like I'm flying. Seeing all my beautiful surroundings, up in the clouds. Being happy and forgetting the world, unfortunately I'm not flying, I'm not up in the clouds.
—time skip—
{Raegan pov}
I'm going to Justins doctors appointment, we will see if the cancer is getting better or worse. I'm terrified. I cant to lose him, he is everything to me. I can't imagine it, he makes me happy. We all pile into the mini van, me and his family. His parents in the front Trista and Ada in the middle and me and Justin the back. I look down at our fingers laced together, his legs sitting gently on mine. Suddenly Ada turned in her seat and signalled for me to come closer. "Raegan?" she whispered, "Yes?" I asked her "will Jay be okay?" she asked hopelessly "I like to think so, think positive" I whispered back. I winked as she turned around, I leaned back onto my seat and Justin rested his head on my shoulder. "I love you so much, you know that?" he whispered looking up at me. "of course I know that, I love you a lot more." I leaned in and kissed him, he pulled away and said "Impossible" he leaned back in, we kissed for a while until Trista turned around and yelled "gross!" I gently hit her seat and laughed, Justin dug his head into the crook of my neck, embarrassed.
We got to the hospital and they took Justin into his room, hooked him up to the countless tubes and he layed there. Our hands were still intertwined he was drawing small patterns on my palm, I looked at him and he looked nervous, "Justin, don't worry, your going to be fine. I promise" that was the only time I ever made a promise, that wasn't a promise at all.
"Justin Blake?" A nurse said after about two hours. "Thats me" he said excitedly, "we have your test results" she turned to us "Can I speak to the family please?" His parents glared at each other, They told me to go with them. "Is he okay?" I asked the nurse very concerned, "I'm very sorry, but your son has had a recurrence." she told us, I already had tears in my eyes. "were not sure how long he has, it could range from six months to three years. Only time will tell." His parents hugged each other, I walked back into his room and sat on the arm chair next to his bed, "what did she say?" Justin asked, fear and hope laced into his soft voice. "Justin..." I squeezed my eyes shut, hiding my obvious tears, i was about to continue but he sighed looking down, small globs of salty water formed in his beautiful green eyes. it was noticeable he knew what I was going to say. "Its not fair." he told me putting his head on my shoulder, "this isn't fair" I just nodded allowing him to speak his mind. He breathed out in frustration "why does this happen? Why did you pick me" he said looking up, not up at me, up to the ceiling. I realized he wasn't talking to me, he wasn't asking me; he was asking the world. I wiped away my tears, I need to stay strong. For Justin. "Its fine, your fine. Everything will be fine." I reassured him, truth be told; I had no idea if anything I was saying was true. I was saying things I wanted to be true. I couldn't tell him the cancer would go away, I couldn't tell him he wasn't going to die. I can't lie to him. I love him. So much. I don't understand how he does it, everytime I look into his eyes; his beautiful eyes. I fall in love all over again, he takes my breath away in the best way humanly possible, he makes me smile so much my jaw hurts. I appreciate everything about him, his cheeks, his cold hands, his pale, thin lips, the way he walks, the way his dimple becomes so, adorably noticeable when he smiles. I love everything about him, he's so handsome, you never get tired of looking at him. I can't imagine losing him, it breaks my heart thinking of the day I have to say goodbye. I didn't realize I started crying while thinking until I felt Justins small, cold hand on my cheek, his thumb wiped away a single tear I had shed. "Hey, baby. Guess what?" I shrugged signalling for him to continue. "A wise and attractive I may add; boy once told me that everything will be fine." I chuckled "and who might that wise, oh and attractive boy, be?" I said grinning. "I wonder..." he planted a sweet kiss on my lips, god I love him.
