For The Love of a Daughter

For The Love of a Daughter

It's been a while since we last spoke
What did I do to make you say, "I'm not your dad so just call me uncle"
Do you realize i was four when I left my home in California!
The only thing I could hear was a family war, I held on to my locket hoping everything that happened was a bad dream.
Did you ever wonder what it was like to leave a place you loved a place That made you feel safe
I thought I was your baby girl , the one you loved
It has probably been nine years since we spoke
You can't take back what we never had
Why start now? Why act like you care?
Do you know how hard it was for me to go through life without you? I couldn't do anything that involved a father!
Was I your child or just some charity ward?
You want a relationship now and you expect me to talk to you and pretend like nothing happened.
You are causing Me so much frustration and pain
I don't want you now or anytime soon. When I needed you you were never there
When I first went to school you weren't there or when I made a friend for the first time.
Remember when I was scared of the dark and the storm outside and I hid under the covers? You came in and pretended we were in a cave and the thunder were the bears.
Oh wait that wasn't you it never was you......
Do you even remember my birthday!
What did I do wrong?
You told me i was worthless and no one could ever love me
I believed you and I realized I was alone, now you say I'm going insane if I thought you ever said that.
Do you remember when I was California living a happy life with you?
Then every night all heard was a family war and that's when the pain startstarted. So that's when you threw me out of your world, I thought I was your little princess
You were like a poison that was made everyone feel pain
This is what you did to me but I can't hate you for it because it happened and I can't change the fact that you lie straight to my face.
I wonder who will walk me down the aisle on my wedding day............
One day you will regret everything you ever did to me because I will become something you can't control. If anything you taught me that I can still live a life without anyone holding me back, so thanks.