What happens now...

Chapter 4...

Chapter 4...

well i woke up not ready for a day of hell and punishment, so i got dressed in a pair of light washed jeans a white shirt and a black hoodie. i deiced to wear my brown uggs, i through my hair up into a really messy bun the grabbed my things and waled to the bus stop. the ganders already there so i took a deep breath in and walked to where i normally stood lila wasn't there again. the gang wasn't there either which was wired the bus arrived and i got to school and there was everyone even lila she was with the gang she looked happy and she laughing with them she was even hugging ethan when i walked past they all gave me dirty looks even lila didn. Maybe there are forcing her to. So i went to my locker and got my books, when i got push over my books and papers went everywhere,I tired to grab all my book but i got kicked down again i looked up and saw the lila sophie and taliha. they where laughing calling me names and walked off laughing. i was grabbing all my books when this guy called an helped me i was about to say thank you when i looked up i saw it was ethan. i looked and i couldn't say a thing. i finally said thanks and walked away but he followed me.

''hey riley wait up'' ethan said

'' yes ethan i thought would be with your gang taking shit about me or even hugging my ex best friend''

at that point i ran away crying i could here him yelling out my name but i just kept running i ran all the way onto the girls bathrooms. i ran into a cubicle and locked it and just cried, at this point in time is where i really need my best friend but she is the gang, she doesn't care about me anymore i bet you you she never has. i staying in there and when the bell rang i didn't go to homeroom i went to my locker grab my thing and walked home, because i couldn't deal with being around lil the gang and especially ethan. when i reached home i went straight up to my room and jumped on my bed and just cried into my pillow i ended up drifting to sleep. i woke up to a text message own my phone. what wow i sleeted all day crap its 2.30. i open the texts and it was from lila. i was contemplating weather or to open it. i ended up opening it and it said what i thought it was gonna say...

Lila: Riley... i dont wanna be friends with someone like you anymore, i released that ur just a worthless girl with hope in life, ethan is a really nice guy but you where to chicken to talk to hime so i guess i get first dibs, so me and ethan are going out this friday to a party. Awwww your probably bring by this point big whoop, i never liked you in the first place you just a fat ugly slutty cunt, go kill yourself you hopeless fuck xx lila ahahah

I thought she was gonna apologies not say all this, if she hated me so much why would have helped me in the first place and do all these different things with me why would she have stayed by me for this long, that is her problem, why would she want me to die what have i ever done to her or the stupid gang, but maybe there right maybe i am just a hopeless girl who has no friends, maybe my life is just a hopeless and shitty. i am fat and ugly my i should die maybe i am just taking up a life that a person more important could have a perfected life.

i ran to my bathroom and grabbed the sharpest thing i could find and started cutting my wrist, overtime i cut it got deeper and longer, until my phone buzzed, i stopped cutting and released what i was doing i dropped he blade and started clean up all the blood off the floor and then i didn't even remember my phone had gone off when it went off again, i grabbed a hoodie and went and checked my phone wiping all the tears off my face, i looks at my phone and it had an unknown number saying hey Riley its ethan, sorry for texting but i would really like to talk to you could you please meet at the park at 10. Ethan.

why would ethan wanna talk to me and how did her get my number, the i remembered today when i ran off on him well whoops. i had deiced to meet him so i replied to his message with i will meet you there at ten. i put on some leggings and a sweatshirt the put my hair up into a bun and grabbed my phone and puts then walked to the park to was about 9:30 i got there really early so i could have sometime to myself and just be out in the fresh air so i put in my headphones and just sat on a chair and listened to music. It felt good to be able to be free and just be myself, but at the same time it felt sad that i couldn't be myself at school, i had to be the shy scared frighted girl, i known as the nerd i was known as the freak, i had no choice i was to scared to stick up for myself. i am just girl who is quite shy and nothing. at school i am a nothing i have no friends i am by myself and i am just a nothing. i am loner. about 45 minutes later i was still waiting for ethan to come so i decided to text him. but them as i was typing the text message i deiced to delete it and decide to wait until 10:30 and if he wasn't here by them i would just leave and go home. I was about to get an leave when i saw a figure coming towards me in the distance i automatically assumed it was ethan so i sat straight back down and waited. The figure come closer and the more it come closer the less it looked like ethan and the more it looked like girl. the girl looked like someone i knew. well to my great surprise it was lila.

''well well what do we have here, u actually thought ethan would text you and actually would wanna meet up with u ahahah your actually so sad, well i am here to worn you, Now riley you look talk sit near my boyfriend yes ethan is now my boyfriend he asked me out the other night aha you will not see then end of me or the gang because you would have the mad the biggest mistake of your life you hear me''

'' yes i hear u'' after that i turned around with tear starting to come out my eye and walked away i looked around and saw ethan had joined her and they were making out. so i turned back around and ran i ran home as fast as my leg could take me. i got to my fount door unlocked it and ran straight to my bedroom. i opened my phone and texted mum to see when her and mum would be home, she texted back about 2 hours later and said that dad has got a full time job up here so they are be living here so have either choice to move up here eiyh them or lie down there an fi will come and see you and free week i have? i deiced just to stay living down here for the rest of my school years an maybe do college up there or something.

Great i am now leaving in this great massive ass house all by myself. cleats i can get away with anything i wanted to do. so i deiced as mum and told me they have there credit card in there sock draw and they said i could used that to get anything i needed and that there is unlimited money on there but i cant go cray with the money so i deiced to go online and order some makeup new clothes shoes, hair things, furniture because i am gonna give myself a hole new look that includes new clothes re dong my room to make it more me an more my age, i deiced i wasn't gonna go to school tomorrow instead i was going to go get my hair done at this hair place my mum recommended.

i woke up the next morning and called the hair dressers up and they had a place for my at 2 pm so that gives enough time to get ready and look at hair colours an styles that i wanted to do. i was finished getting ready for the day i went online to look up hair styles i wanted some nice and that would suit me but also something way different and that was a bit crazy and out there. i liked the look of grey and blue or brown into pink. i dont i think i might deiced when i get there and just say whatever i am i think of at the time. so it was about 1:30 and its as about a 15 minute walk so i deiced to go so i could at leat be so what early, so i got my thing together and stared walking to the hair salon i got out my headphone and stared to listen to some music. i got there about 15 minutes earlier and there was a starbucks right next door so i deiced to get a large iced cappachino. after i got my order i walked into the hair dresser and sat down i waited until they where ready for me and they called my name and sat down in the chair and they asked me what i wanted and i said i wanted...

hey guys mia here i relay hope u are enjoys my book i am want you to help me deiced what colour riley shud dye her hair so please leave a comment below and tell me what we should do love u guy and thanks for all you support on this book and my other books xx Mia