Balang Araw

Balang araw, makikita mo din ako.

Balang araw, magugustuhan mo din ako.

Balang araw, marerealize mo din na ako naman pala at hindi siya.

Balang araw, mamahalin mo din ako.

After waiting for so long, I thanked God for giving what i want.

For giving me my 'balang araws' to happened.

For letting me experienced how it feels to be loved by you.

You were my only wish. The only person who's always in my dreams.

And when God granted my wish, I did'nt ask for anything else because i know with you, i have everything i need.

Messages, calls, and roses every day.

Dates every week.

Our out of towns.

Meeting your parents and being close with your sister.

Planning for our future and giving names for our future children.

It's so surreal. Everything is perfect.

You told me you're happy. That having me is the true meaning of life.

That you are indeed found your better half.

But i forgot one thing, life is not a fairytale.

There's no such a thing as happy ending after you found your prince charming .

After exchanging i love yous and whispering sweet nothings.

Giving some dramas that will excite the readers then viola, you have your happy ending.

Can you imagine a twenty six year old woman who still believe in that kind of stories?

Saying that everything is fine even though it's not.

Forcing herself to believe that at the end of the day, they will end up together and live happily ever after.

Well, that was before, until reality hits me with a full force.

Thank you! For telling me everyday how much you love me.

For your efforts that made me fall harder,

For always making me happpy.

Then your secret revealed, FUCK YOU!

Fuck your words,

your sweet gestures,

your sweet smiles,

the way you look,

the way you care.

You are a great actor, you made me believed to that fucking lies.

FUCK your infidelity,

Your dishonesty,

your betrayals.

For making me questioned my self worth.

Everything about you screams evil.

You are heartless, an evil to be exact but im a fool, damn stupid to believe in your lies.

To give everything i have.

For loving you more than myself.

Oh scratch that, stupid me for loving you most and forgot to love myself.

But your time of playing games with me is over.

I will not give you another chance to ruin my life again.

I've learned my lessons the hard way.

Forgetting you will not be easy.

I won't deny it, i still love you but i will make it my goal to forget you because i know i deserve more.

My heart will heal but for now, let me embrace the pain to remind me to value myself

dahil alam kong time will come, mawawala din ang sakit

BALANG ARAW ...