I shouldn't be on here.. I completely forgot about this account until today... I had to let some shit out tho... anyway... no one message me...my dad has my phone... but here's the story... I got everything taken away.... my laptop, phone, boyfriend, best friends, everything... I feel so hurt and lost right now... I can't even explain how much this hurts...
I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate myself. I hate everything. I'm even thinking about breaking up with the one person I love more than anything in this fucking world to save his god damn life (literally). I would rather him be safe and happy without me then dead...
I miss my best friend... God she made me laugh a lot... yea, she liked me, but fuck it. She was there for me.
I miss my other best friend too... our Snapchat pictures were the worst, but I mean... they made me laugh.
I miss my twin... I miss her ranting about her partner so much... it was hilarious...
no one cares how I feel. It's "not appropriate" and I'm naive and dumb and I have a shit ton of problems. I can't fucking talk to anyone other than my internet friends (who were all taken away) because everyone else turned their back on me...
I broke again... I just lost hope. Sure, I'm happy sometimes. But deep down, I feel the pain and guilt... I ruined their lives, mine included... I'll never get Jake, Sanjeet, Dakota, Nikki, Kayli, Sky, Hunter, Clancy... THEYRE ALL FUCKING GONE...
I'm so sorry... I won't be back... hopefully I can fix everything... until then.... goodbye....
