I always find it a bit funny when people say they wish they could go back to being younger and carefree.
Because I don't want to go back there. I mean I'm still young but I don't want to go back to being a toddler or a 11 year old.
I don't want to be the age I am now.
It's because I was aware of reality
I was aware of death
I was aware of where babies came from
I knew these at age 2 and 3.
I was aware of the divorce (even if they didn't know I was).
I was aware of my mom's financial situation and so I've never asked for anything my entire life.
I was aware of the arguing between my mom and Nana.
Sometimes my Nana would even ask me, "When are you guys moving out?"
That's not what you should ask an insecure, very aware, 6 year old because it makes her feel horrible.
I don't want to go back to when I was younger.
I don't want to stay the age I am now.
I just want to skip to when I find complete happiness.
If that day ever comes.
