Alone.
That is all I felt.
It wasn't happiness or sadness.
I was alone.
It was a hole I couldn't get through.
It is darkness that was never ending.
Minus a light at the end that I hope to reach someday.
I mean I guess I did have my 4 friends but they didn't understand what my life was. I was on facebook on my laptop. I hear a ding. I look and see that Jessamine had messaged me.
Jess: Hey girl! How's it goin?
Viola: Hey Jess. It's going good :)
What about you?
Jess: I mean as good as it can get. My mom got home and almost hit me. Can you believe it? My own MOTHER abused me.
If only she knew what it was like to be abused.
Viola: Are you serious?! That is the dumbest thing ever. Your mother shouldn't abuse you like that!!!!
Jess: I know right.
Hey I have to go my mom is in a bad mood. Ttyl!!
Bye Jessamine. I guess.
I close my laptop and it drops to the floor. It took me about 2 minutes to process what I had just done.
"VIOLA RAE LEE YOU ARE BEING TOO FUCKING LOUD!" I hear my brother scream as he is stomping up the stairs. I frantically run and hide. It doesn't work before Michael is in my room.
"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to!!" I plead. It didn't work because Michael was starting to punch me. After a while I stopped feeling the pain. Michael got bored and left my room.
And there again.
Alone.
I am alone with my thoughts. I am alone with my demons.
The only thing that has kept me from ending it all.
Alone and afraid in my room with my abuser downstairs.
Drinking.......again.
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Teen FictionAll her life Viola Lee was abused. No one knew though because she was always quiet and shy. She isn't the new girl or anything but most people don't know about her because of her state. Her abuser would be the last person you would expect.....her br...
