Today is the first day of my break. I decided to go change my entire haircut and color. When I got there I told Theresa to Cut it fist then color it. " No bleach though." She nodded. She gave me bangs, not the ugly kind that no one likes but the flippy ones that look good on certain people. She colored it Auburn but it was dark. When I left I began my drive to see Hannibal. When I got there I sat in the waiting room for hours. When he was finished and would see me, I told him about Will. " Dr. Lecter I- I don't know what to do. I've always been nice to people but I stayed away and never really liked people." He continued with " But when you met Will you started a friendship." I nodded " Yeah and now well, I think I have feelings for Will but he likes Alana though." Dr. Lecter then asked " Then it really isn't the fact that you have a physiological problems-" " Its the fact that I really would like someone to talk to and I'm willing to pay you for it." He smiled and said " I like the haircut. I think you should probably tell Graham how you feel." I sighed and said " Not now. Give it time." He nodded and said " Reina...I think you are lonely and you have been for a while and that bothers you a lot now." I sighed and said " Hannibal I don't know how much more of this I can take." He stood and gave me a hug. " Hannibal I think I'm gonna quit." He pulled away " no don't do that. You are too good for that. Just stay off the field then." I nodded and said " i'm gonna go see Jack- Oh yeah he's out on a case....I'll just call." As I was driving I called. " Jack I'm going back to reports okay, I'll turn in 28 at your desk this evening," "No 3." "Nooo You assigned me 15 and then 13 more so Im gonna do them all." I hung up and got to work. After I turned them In I looked and he was back. " This is about Will isn't it." I sighed and said " Jack that isn't the actual case I mean I'm just not that useful on the field you seen that at Minnesota!" " No this is you running from the fear of getting too attracted to Will Graham!" I screamed " Maybe I'm lying and already have!" I shut up. " I'm lying to myself saying its not too late to run away from him. He loves Alana..." Jack nodded and said " I accept that and I wont say anything else...I'll keep your secret." I was walking when someone slammed me up against the wall. " Why are you ignoring me!?" I sighed and said " You don't need me-" "YES! YES.I.DO!" I sighed and said " Will......you don't need me..." I got loose and went home. I was crying the whole time home. when I laid down I felt empty. It was 5 o'clock and I still didn't fall asleep. I looked to see if anyone was up on Facebook but, I was out of luck. I looked at my phone for 3 hours straight but then I called Hannibal. to my surprise he was already up. " I'm so sorry Hannibal but I can't sleep are you busy?" "Not at all, do you need to see me about him?" " Yes." I sighed and got dressed and drove to Dr. Lecters. By the time I got there it was 7 o'clock in the morning. When I got there I hugged him and said " He forced me to talk to him..." He sat me down and I told him. " Will stopped me and asked why I was ignoring him. I told him that he didn't need me but, he told me that he needed me. I feel like he just needs an anchor and he wants me to be there but I can't." Hannibal nodded.
When Reina left I went into the office and seen that Will was coming over this evening. I will talk to him about Reina tonight. Patient after Patient, finally Will came in. " Will I have a question." Will nodded. " What are your thoughts about Reina." He sighed and took off his glasses. " I don't know. I really need her but she thinks I don't. I feel like she thinks that she hurts me." I sighed and said " Will....You should give her time then talk to her okay?" Will looked up " Wait....why do you ask? How did you know about Reina....nobody knows about that?" I gulped and said " Wild guess." Will stood and asked " Is she coming to see you?!" I nodded no and said " Will even if she was I couldn't say." I sighed. Will left and I finally had some alone time.
The next appointment came around with Dr. Lecter. I was done talking about Will so I got up and As I opened the door I seen Will. I gulped and said "Will." He looked me in the eye and said " You have some explaining." I sighed and asked " Hannibal can I borrow your office." He nodded and stepped out. Will sat down and grabbed my hands. " Will....We were friends but, I'm getting too close." Will looked hurt. I stood and walked out closing the door behind me. Silent tears fell. I walked out of Hannibal's office and went home and cried myself to sleep.
It's been about a week, Hannibal told me I should move back in with Will and I did. Today is Itachi's birthday, he is turning 2. I had a bowl of food for him with a small pieces of chicken inside. Will and Alana are out looking for a dog. I just got back from my sessions with Hannibal. He told me to tune it out when Alana comes up. When I got all of my kittens together I began to sing.
~Cumplaños Feliz, Cumplaños Feliz Te Deamos Itachi, Cumplaños Feliz.~
Will and Alana clapped and I smiled. Itachi began to eat. I got up and said " I'm gonna go and finish the laundry." I sighed and went upstairs. I went to bed and woke up to Will banging on the chimney. I laid back down but I heard Alana come in. I got decent and went downstairs and seen Alana kissing Will. I felt the tears flow....they were silent. I just stood there. I ran upstairs and grabbed my box I brought the cats back with, I grabbed them and ran out the top window climbing down the house. I ran to my car and drove to Hannibal's crying the whole way. I just knocked once and he opened it. I dropped the box and hugged Hannibal saying " I shouldv'e never have even went back!" Hannibal pulled me in and sat me on the couch and asked me to tell him what happened. " I-I woke up and heard Alana and thought I-I should be Sociable so I got decent but when I went down.....They-....." I just continued to sob. Hannibal made me look at him saying " Reina....Will is a very confused person." I nodded. He told me to take the kittens and go to my house. When I got there the phone rang. I saw that it was from Will and I ignored it. I put the kittens in the house and got to work. I was facetiming Alana and watching her class, doing a report. When I was done i got a call from Jack.
Will came in right after Tobias left. He told me about Alana. " Now I hesitate to tell you this but, Reina came in this evening." Will laughed " Yeah since you and her are such great pals now-" "She was crying." He sat up and asked " Who did it to her?" I kept looking at Will then he realized it. " When I kissed Alana- Wait. Why would she be upset over that-" "Will you are smart..." He sighed and said " She likes me..." I nodded and said " Will, we have talked about her....you act as though you have some feelings for her..." He nodded and said " She's beautiful, she is smart, she understands me, I think I like her back.." I nodded and said " You should go to her."
I was watching Titanic when I heard a knock on the door. I looked and it was Will. I sighed and answered it. " Now Reina I know what you think and I just need 20 minutes..." I sighed and said " Okay but not too long I wanna finish Titanic." He pulled off his shoes and took off his coat. "Reina there is something I wanna tell you." ~ Oh god what's he gonna say? He likes me?~ " I- I can better show it than say it..." He came closer to me and said " Reina you are so smart and so sweet it's a rare sight." He grabbed my neck and pulled me in for a kiss. I grabbed his neck and returned the favor. When we pulled apart and asked " Wanna watch Titanic with me?" He smiled and nodded. We cuddled together on the couch and watched the movie together. For the first time in a while I wasn't so lonely.
