Stop It [ completed ]

chapter nineteen

• Kei •
1 week after
Today is the day I'll talk to Jimin again, I couldn't hear his thoughts out last week because I was sick but do I really have to do this? I'm making myself more and more delusional that maybe he will say that it's not what I think it is and that he likes me or loves me.

Why am I like this? Why do I keep on hoping? Am I really that pathetic to not let go of something that isn't mine in the first place?

I sighed as I put on my sweater and jeans. I put my hair into a ponytail and sprayed some perfume on.

I guess I'm ready to go. Well, my I look like I'm ready but my heart says no. I'm completely frozen in my place as I stared in the mirror.

Oh gosh, I look like a zombie. Hurriedly, I put in some bb cream and lipstick, maybe it will make me look better. I applied the last layer of lipstick and I grabbed my purse.

I guess, I am ready to go.

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I arrived at the park where we will meet. I saw couples walking around, smiling happily while holding hands. Hm, I wonder what it feels like to be loved by someone you love.

I sat at the nearest bench as I wait for Jimin to arrive. I'm a little bit early I guess.

I waited for him for a couple of minutes, 30 minutes, an hour, until it turned into 2 hours and until it was already 5 in the afternoon.

Where could he be? Maybe he's busy? Maybe he overslept? Why isn't he here?

My head was full of questions wanting to be answered. I checked my phone and saw a text message from him saying,

" Sorry, I couldn't come. I'm busy. Just, forget about me "

My tears fell as I covered my mouth in shock. Forget him? Funny, I couldn't do that. He's the love of my life, why would I do that?

I walked while I sobbed, trying my best not to be noticed by people. I looked around the people around me, they all look so happy, why can't it be me?

Two people caught my eye and they were the people I least expected to see that day, Jimin and Seulgi.

Huh, busy? Busy flirting with that obnoxious brat?! How could you Park Jimin? How could you leave me here without saying a word?

I thought you were at home, maybe you were sick but you're here at the park buying couple things with Seulgi?!

You didn't even tell me she's already yours, maybe I wouldn't come here so easily, maybe I won't assume that you'll finally realize what you've lost and maybe I wouldn't assume that you like me back.

I knew that you were just the same with the boys I loved!

I hate you Park Jimin! I hate you! I sobbed harder and just ran away, I don't care where my feet takes me. I ended up in front of Yein's house and I knocked the door, slightly holding my tears and sobbing hard.

Yein opened it and she hugged me tight after seeing my tears. She escorted me to the couch where I cried my eyes out,
sobbing harder until I feel like I couldn't breath anymore.

I breathe in and out and was finally breathing steadily again. I cried once again, while remembering the scene that broke my heart.