~Blue Skies Die Tonight~

Pro.

I don't like coming home from work just to see my parents and sister just giving me that one look. I am Jack Clover but everyone calls me J.C. and Im 17. I work at Wal-Mart which is a few miles away from home, but im glad because I hate being near my family. Once I get home they stare at me and give me there "I hate you, I wish you could just finally leave" face. Yea sure I came home high once...okay a few times but I had some rough days. I also came home drunk as well twice and well brought some girls home as well those 2 times I was drunk. But that doesn't mean my parents AND sister get to be mad at me, I just hate them for not actually telling me what's going on.

A few years ago I was in freshman year of high school. I had a few friends, until near the end of the year they all started to hate me. I swear I've never FUCKING did anything to them to make them hate me. Many times I thought maybe if I kill myself it would all stop and someone would finally care. But I didn't, I don't know why I didn't. I always ask myself if I should but, for some reason I cant really get myself to do it when I am ready to. But anyway I got my drivers license in the summer so I could be cool again but, everyone still hated me. I remembered I broke a hole in my wall, I just put some duct tape over it and a poster hoping it would work. Turns out it did. I was surprised. And turns out when I drove I could get away from my family, this was before the drugs and stuff but my so called family still hated me. Fuck I wish they were dead because I never had any love from them. Leaving helped me calm down, I just hated coming home because I always heard.

Parents, " You Are Getting A Job Once You Turn 16!!"

I did soon after get a job since my birthday was close, July 5, yes right after the big "Fourth of July." I never get anything for my birthday or anything, I only got a look from them. I know all of the looks they give. After they yelled at me for the job thing I knew this look was "You better go get that job right now." So I went out looking for something to do. I didn't find much but there was I job I liked because it was WAY far away from my family. It is the job I work at know, Wal-Mart. It did take a few days until they accepted me. Working there was amazing until school started again so I had to ask my boss for part time for it. He is really nice to me but not anyone else. You can tell this on those one days were all of our work gets together and have a lunch outside. I don't bring my family at all, but my boss does. He has a wife, daughter that's 14, and 2 sons 4 and 7. My boss is an average man sized type of guy. He is skinny, about 6'2, brown eyes with brown hair, and his name is Jonesy Trot. His wife, Art, is browned hair as well, blue eyes, a little curvy, and 5'8. All their kids have brown hair and blue eyes. June, is their daughter, and A. Jax, is their 6 year old and Fox, is their 4 year old. Fox did have red hair when he was born but after a while when he turned 2 his hair started to become brown but, lately its starting to become red again. These guys are not the same with my family. My dad is a fat lard, bald, I don't really know his height because he is mostly on his ass, with hazel eyes. My mom is skinny, blond, 5'7, and with blue eyes. Hah typical blond. My bratty little sister, Jenia, that is 12 years old is chubby, 5'2, blond hair with my mom, and brown eyes. For me, Im more different. I and 6'6 with black hair, green eyes and I look like a twig. My family doesn't look anything like my boss's family. And ya sure I sound like a typical "emo" ish boy, like I like, bands like, MCR (My Chemical Romance), FOB (Fall Out Boy), BMTH (Bring Me the Horizon), and plenty more. I wear black a lot unless im home or at work then I wear no shirt just some sweats and my boxers at home, and my work clothes for work.

School is shit for me. I am just pointing it out. Same with other people its shit with but at least I don't go kill myself instantly when I get home from it. I get there and well since my friends dissed me I just stand alone next to a wall, I can hear whispers around me saying "ew look its the punk ass" and shit like that. At times I wanna kill all of them.

I just want to leave this world at times.