I have to realize that I am not in my fantasy anymore like I thought I was for 6 years. Thinking for 6 years that maybe we might end up together. But no we are in reality and reality bites. What you want, you don't get. Can't force love even when you want it most.
I wish that I was with him. That he could be my rock and I could be his. I wish he could show me the way as I do the same for him. I wish we could be cuddling watching a movie and talking. Or in the pool hanging out. Or even just kissing. In the end all I want is to be with him.
I wish I could grab his face and just smoother him with kisses, but no I can't do that because if I did he wouldn't understand.
I want to be sad and looking at the ground and then just have you lift my head looking in my eyes and wiping the tears away. And then I just wish in that moment you could kiss me. But again that is probally never going to happen because he obviously doesn't like you like that.
