My name is Mary, I am 17 I never thought that it would be this way...when I was little I was always happy I was always friends with everyone... We all were. I always had sleepovers and invited people over for a play dates I was a social butterfly. My neighbors were always first supportive with everything when I used to fall on the playground at school he used to help me up he was a year older than me and him were best friends his younger brother one year younger than me we weren't as close we didn't talk that much and when we did we often fought. I wasn't overweight if anything I was a little underweight but I at that age no one cared it didn't matter. When I turned 11 a lot of things changed, I lost a lot of friends no one like me people pushed me into lockers and I got into a lot of fights I turn to self harm I tried to kill myself but then my friend found out,only friend that I had her name was Amanda, she was in the grade above me, we did everything together no matter what we always got in trouble but we didn't care we had fun while doing it and that's all that mattered. after that I still have no friends, I didn't get pushed into lockers as much but cyber bullying started happening, people told me to go kill myself on a daily basis , they meant it as a joke but I didn't take it that way I took it seriously I wanted to die so badly I thought that it would get better so I stayed little did I know that it was going to get worse. I mean it's scary what a smile can hide right?