Before you let go

Chapter one: The end

I can't believe I'm getting a divorce. I don't even know what I'm going to do now, should I even try to save my marriage since I'm pregnant? Or should I just accept that me and Tyler relationship is over. I'm getting so old I'll be 30 soon. And what man would want a 30 year old woman with a baby on a way and a divorce under her belt? I'm bruised good and what's worst of all is ok I'm not sure if I even want a divorce. Provided I haven't seen or heard from Tyler in three months. I wonder if he found someone else and that's why he said we might as well get a divorce. Four years of marriage about to go down the drain with one paper. A paper that I wish I would never see the light of day. As I lay on my bed I look at my belly. Six months along and I look like I ate a entire watermelon. Which wasn't to far from the truth these days since most of my day consisted of eating chocolate cake and looking at my wedding photo's. I miss those days where we were so in love and happy. Things were simple at a point with us so I don't know what wrong. Over time we started arguing more over the fact that I never seen him because of his job. Then it got out of hand with the cheating accusations to the I need some air to I'm ready for this to be over. Looking back I know he wouldn't cheat on me I just wanted to press his buttons and make him as angry as I was. I wish things were different between us. I wish he wasn't this famous actor and just a nerdy weird guy I feel in love with. But he coming over later to sign the divorce papers and next week we have a doctor appointment. I can't believe in a couple of hours my marriage is going to be over. No second chances no I'm sorry for being unsure of myself I want this to work. It's going to be over no second chances that's it the end.