Kissing Outside the Closet (BoyXBoy)

Chapter 4

Sorry I really suck at this whole Posting Every few days but ya know school ugh. Anyway I hope you like this chapter. It might be a little sad that is if i did my job right. >>> Keegan over yonder

Chapter playlist: Human By Chritina Perry, Wanted by Hunter Hayes, Ain't it Fun by Paramore, Lupe Fiasco Ft. Ed Sheeran Old School Love, and Adore You by Miley Cyrus.  All these songs helped me write this chapter.

 Zander's POV

"How was work today honey?" My mother spoke from the kitchen as I gave her a kiss on the cheek.

"It was interesting I guess." I said as I plopped a seat down on the coach and kicked my feet up on the coffee table and sighed. I couldn't stop thinking about that kid Jesse and his freckled face and ruffled brown hair that looked like he just woke up. Ugh it was fucking annoying that his face wouldn't leave my mind.

    "Zander feet off the table please." She said with her eyebrows raised. I obeyed obediently.

   "Why don't you go help your brother with his homework he's been up there for a while I think he might be having some trouble." She spoke sadly, as she plopped on the coach next to me.

   "I think he's falling behind because of all that time he took off. He seems to not even want to try anymore." my mom runs her hands over her face in frustration.

   "I just don't know what to do to help him anymore. He's giving up on himself." I could tell she was on the brink of tears. Damn I hate when people cry in front of me it makes me get flustered.

   "Look mom it's going to be okay. I'll go help him so don't worry." I said a bit quickly. I walked upstairs to my brother’s room. When I open the door I was greeted by a long frustrated sigh. He pulled on his dark hair in tuffs.  I knocked on the door so that he knew I was there. He looked at me and his eyes fell back to his math textbook.

   "You want some help?" I asked.

   "Yes..." He said shamefully. I sat down on the bed next to him. He scooted over away from me like he did with everyone. Fumbling with his fingers nervously and that’s when I notice the white and bright pink slashes. Staring at them made my chest burn so bad. I was almost angry. His eyes meet with mine noticing my stare. His eyes flash with panic and he pulls his sleeves down roughly. If I could only find the bastard who made him become like this. He was like a stranger to me now. But I did what we always seemed to do in this relationship between the two of us.

Pretend nothing happened.

And I was becoming quite good at it.   

"We'll which one are you having trouble with?" I say.

   "Umm...number nine" he spoke tentatively without looking at me in the eyes.

I stare at the problem for a while.

“All you have to do is factor then solve for x. You should know this Keegan.” I tell him lightly. He stares me down harshly.

            “Well when you’re out of school for 5 months you tend to not know things Zandrius.” He spits back at me using my full name as a weapon against me because he knows I hate that.

“Hey you asked for help didn’t you! Well this is me trying to help you so stop being such an ass Keegan!” I shout at him standing up.

            “I didn’t ask for help! I didn’t ask for any of this to happen to me Zandrius!” He says on the brink of a sob as he pulls up his sleeve to show me his arm decorated with different arrays of colored scars.