ever ask yourself "what if i did that differently" or "what if i wouldn't have done that?" or any what if questions?
i do all the time, it's horrible
it makes you second guess everything you do. every move you make
it's scary as shit to even think that your actions decide everything
you could choose to say something or not say it at all and they both have totally different outcomes
your actions, your decisions, even your thoughts make up what is going to happen next
i lay in bed and question everything i did that day, what if i hadn't of done that, would the outcome of today been different
what if i had said that, how would today have gone down
life is horrible, it's like this big mind game that you'll never be able to figure out
you think you have it down and stop thinking about it and the next thing you know you fall into this big ass hole and you can't find your way out.
and then it starts all over again, you look for your way out, you think you find it and then there's another hole
