TimeLess

I woke up in my brothers house ... wow this isn't a dream I said to myself and I started crying again I looked at my phone and I had so manny ppl reaching out telling me that they was sorry and that he was in a better place .. that was the last thing I wanted to hear my father was not in a better place a better place was here with his kids and loved ones !!!!! I just stood there with my phone on my chest I can feel that my eyes a swollen from crying so much and they feel Shut like I can barley open them .

I tried to call my mom again this time I got a answer .

" Ashley omg I know already I'm already back here in the Bronx come to Wela's house I'm here i need to see you ok hurry up ! "

I could telll that she was fighting back her tears my father and mother split up when I was 8 but they never got a divorce . They never wanted to admit it but I know they still saw each other on the low .

" that's my bitch when I feel like it " he always joked with me

" Ima need you to stop playing with my mother before we jump you ! "

He was so jokey and funny I still respected him but I still looked at him like a friend I could tell my dad anything , dam this really hitting me so hard I got to my grandmother house and my mom hugged me so tight and we cried together .. I was always closer with my dad cause every time i got into it with my mom I would call my dad I was daddy's little girl ❤️
Now I'm left feeling TIME less and empty I just wana go back in time and tell him I love him and that I always will .. but I can't till this very day that haunts me ..