In all honesty, I wanted to tell him "Sure! No problem" But that's just going to make him think that I actually cared to listen to what he said....
But don't you?
Ummm....no!
You sure?
Ummm......yes?
Really?
Ugh! Dumb self-conscious! Of all the times I need you, you only show up when I don't want you! Gosh Damnit!
Mmmm Meh
Why you little....
I was going to say a few words that would be bleeped on TV, when a voice interrupted me. "Um, Miss Devon?" At first I thought it was the detective, but then remembered that the detective was well you know, A guy. Instead I found myself looking up at a female doctor standing at the end of the bed.
"Yes?"
"Hi! I'm your doctor. Dr. Whytar" A full smile on her lips as she talks. That smile...it's...it looks familiar. I tried to go back in my memory to see if I could see if we'd met before. The harder I tried the less I remembered.
She coughed, looking uncomfortable. Gosh was I staring? I was staring.... Gosh darn it Eternity! Stop Staring!!!
I turned my gaze towards the door. "So, umm" I clear my throat "Is, is there anything wrong with me? Any permeant damage?"
"Well as for now, no, nothing...at least for the naked eye."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, that we're going to have to run some test to make sure you don't have any internal damage. MRI's, x-rays, etc. Just to make sure. That was a really long fall you know." She said. All while looking me in the eyes. I knew what she was trying to say, but I didn't feel like explaining myself right now. I just really needed more sleep.
"So, it looks like I won't be going home tonight." Don't get me wrong I don't mind that at all. It's just that I don't have any clothes to change into.
She chuckles. "No. You'll have to stay overnight. And don't worry. We sent your father to go pick up some clothes for you. In the meantime," She hands me a pair of black scrubs. "here are some scrubs. For you to wear. While you wait.... for your dad." She smiles again. That smile...I could have sworn –
"Anyways, that's all for now"
"Uhh, thanks. I guess"
"Yeah, no problem." And with that she left the room.
I thought it was weird how quick she left. But then again, she is a doctor. I'm obviously not her only patient.
And you wonder why I showed up today.
Oh, shut up!
Before I could get into a fight with me, I fell asleep. When I did, it was one o'clock. More or less. When I woke up it was ten minutes to nine. I guess I was just that tired. I turned to face the clock near the door and saw some clothes in a cheap duffle bag in a chair. I got out of bed to go check them out.
Hmm, a bra, panties, shorts, jeans, two white long sleeved shirts, and three pads. Looks like my dad's girlfriends' back in town. Otherwise all I would have gotten would be some tee he'd find on my bed and some gym shorts. Either way, I wouldn't have worn them. I don't like him or Trinity Whynters. His girlfriend. The only reason she did this is because I caught her with another guy in my dad's house when he was out. Ever since then she's been a fake little thorn in my side. Just hoping I don't say anything to my dad. But she doesn't understand that I don't care. It was never my house and never will be. Plus, my dad deserves whatever happens to him.
In the end, I ended up grabbing the scrubs the doctor gave me and a towel found I the bag. I headed to the mini bathroom to take a shower. I found an unused toothbrush and some toothpaste. So, I brushed my teeth before jumping into the shower. Where I found hot water and soap.
The water felt so nice running down my swollen and sore body. I don't know how long I was in there but, it was enough to fog the glass so much that I had to run my hand on its surface to see. I don't know why I did though. It's not like I was anything worth seeing. Especially now. I have even more cuts, and my skin was colored blue and green, with small patches of yellow. On my forehead was a deep cut. It was covered in bandages and blood when I first came in, and now all it is red. Looking very fragile. I lift my hand to touch it and wince at the instant sting from contact. I pull away, my eyes filling with tears that threaten to fall.
NO! You haven't cried in a long time! And you're not going to do it now. For all you know someone could be outside waiting to check up on you!
I was never one listen to myself. So, I cried anyways. Sitting on the bathroom floor with new scrubs on, I balled my eyes out. I cried even after I ran out of tears. And Here comes that anger thing again! But it's not as strong as my sadness. Why did you leave me? Why aren't you here with me now? Korenea, I miss you so much.
After my walls came back up again, I wiped my red eyes, got off the floor and walked to the mirror. I wished that Trinity brought me a razor. But then again that's another one of my problems. Always cutting. When people ask why, I can never answer. Cutting isn't a thing. It's not a possession. It's a feeling. And for me I can never win a fight with it. It always wins.
Oh well. Before I go back, I go pick one up from some drug store. Or even the Family Dollar. For now, I should probably go back to sleep. Feeling tired, I grab my things off the floor, and walk out the door. Or more like walked into someone's chest.
"Oh, My God! I am so sorry! I didn't mean to- wait. What are you doing here in the first place? This is my room!" I was yelling at this person's chest. How dare this person just walk into here unannounced?!? "Boiii! You is funna learn today!" Yes, I am half black, especially when I'm mad!
"Sorry miss. But you Didn't call me like I asked. Told you I'd be back" He said. Then, and only then did I look up. Only to find the detective staring down at me.
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