Kill Me or Give Me Life.

Chapter 1: Invisible scars.

Natsu's (POV)

I never thought that love could hurt so much. It hurts even though it is practically non-existent.

I had a plan... Bring her home... Get to know her... Date... Nothing went as planned.

I thought that if I protected her, she'd know just how much I like her. But... I was wrong to assume that maybe she'd like me the same way.

After all... I'm not even human, who would love me? I'm a monster. I'm a demon that love's an angel.

I haven't genuinely smiled since the grand magical games. Back then I thought for sure that Luce was starting to love me but... She only thinks of me as her guilmate and friend.

I've been having thoughts of suicide for the past two and a half years.

I tell them that I will protect my friends that I'll live for them... But...

In reality, I'm ready to die at any moment.

There's nothing here for me anymore. I have no purpose. I'm just an experiment gone wrong... My brother was an idiot. He was wrong for bringing such a worthless being back to life.

Everything in my life is the same. Wake up, eat, fight, eat, sleep... That's it! There's nothing that makes me want to stay... Except for her.

Even so, she doesn't even notice me anymore. She's so beautiful, men are lining up at her door for a date. She wouldn't settle for a filthy nonhuman Dragon Slayer like me.

I started to cry at these thoughts. I sat alone under the same sakura tree I uprooted for Lucy; For that year she couldn't come to the festival.

I looked out into the distance, wondering what it's like to be anyone else. I didn't ask to be Natsu Dragneel... I didn't ask to be a demon... I didn't ask to be a failure...

I wiped my tears away and leaned back against the tree.

"Things would be allot simpler if I never existed... Zeref wouldn't have been sad and tried to revive me... All this war and famine would be nonexistent like I should have been." I said to myself.

"If not you then someone else." Said a voice.

I turned to see my brother walking up behind me.

The war was over a year ago now. Zeref was no longer immortal and he was normal once more. Being that we are Fairytail and his girlfriend is the first master... He became a member.

"Baby brother why do you say such nonsense?" He asked sitting down beside me.

"You tell me? Am I wrong?" I rebutted.

"Yes and no." He said back.

"Why did you create me... You would've been better off without a brother like me."

"You may be right, but to me you are wrong. I love you now just as I loved you then. We are brothers... We have a bond that cannot be matched." Zeref stated.

"You may not be the normal Natsu that was just human but you are still Natsu Dragneel. Your brain, heart, and soul they are that of a human. Even though it cost me my humanity to revive you I'd gladly do it again." He added.

"Don't be stupid."

"I mean it. Kill yourself like you've been saying and I'll just do it all over again." Zeref confirmed. "Don't forget that I've done it once... I can do it again."

"Whatever... Do it I won't care. That way I can just kill myself over and over again."

"You idiot... There are people here who need you and it's not just me." Zeref scolded.