Sometimes sitting in darkness, true darkness, calms the most.
The darkness that blinds you. All the world fades away. No more sounds, or illustrations of your life.
Just black.
The moment the memories, good or ill fade. All thoughts of failure or success leave. Just silence.
I live for those moments, because only then am I at peace.
Then the moon or sun breaks threw and it all comes crashing back like a wave hitting a cliff mid storm.
I crumble for minutes, or hours.
Then the storm doesn't feel like the last only just another. I stand looking out into the void and smile because I have had my moment of peace.
Taking a step, then another, I come back to the bright world of reality. Though I live for the moments of true silence, the world is filled with noise.
I must continue for my love, my family, and even myself.
For no matter how much I crave true silence, its not yet my time to rest.
I'm only granted pit stops along the road.
