Just A Girl

A free verse poem for everyone. No matter how tough you are...no matter how many secrets you carry within you...no matter how much makeup you wear. Sometimes, you're just a girl (or a boy). And so am I.

I'm bleeding

Broken, shattered inside

There are so many horrible things I see

Marks of corruption in this ruined world

Blood, pain, cuts and bruises

Painful memories come flooding back

I fight back a scream of frustration

Everything is so...ugly.

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Echoes of screams ring in my ears

I'd like to just run, hide, and wish them away

I bury my head in my pillow

Tucked up safely in my blanket

Soothing music plays

I close my eyes

But it doesn't make a difference.

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As children, our hearts are all pure

Like the first apple blossom or fresh fallen snow,

We dance about, boasting of our dreams and our futures

Foolishly unaware of Time and his dark cloak.

But when Misfortune creeps upon us

When Fear and Anger consume our hearts

The iridescent Hope is suddenly forgotten

And all those innocent fantasies, wishes, and thoughts of joy

End up crumbling into Hell below.

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Sometimes I feel...nothing

Because like a soldier, I've been trained that way

To be as cold as ice, as hard as steel

As sharp as a shard of glass

As perfect as the purest diamond

...Without the flaws that we call "emotion"

Aided with make up, friends, jokes and drinks

I am powerful

Invincible

Unable to be hurt

But also an empty husk of mock bravery.

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Sometimes all my armor is too heavy to carry

Sometimes I just want a break

And when I take all that baggage off

When I strip away the mascara, and the sword

When I shed my brave smile and story of lies

And the empty look in my eyes

I am almost afraid to look in the mirror

Because only then am I confronted with the reality that

...I'm just a girl.

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