"babe, i'm home!" calum screamed out while taking his jacket and shoes off. while he was doing that he didn't hear her say anything back. he thought she must've been taking a shower, but he didn't hear water running, so he called her again.
"babe? are you there?" calum screamed out once again. now, he was worried. he quickly ran up the stairs and saw that the door was cracked open a little. she wasn't on the bed, but it looked like it was because her laptop was open. he went over to check at it and saw that it was her mentions on twitter and the mentions were all hate. it was hate from his fans. he looked at the tweets. they were all saying such rude things that he felt like he was going to throw up, but then he realized. his eyes went wide open and he quickly went into the bathroom. when he got there it woudn't budge.
"juliet? are you in there? open this door right now!" he kept on banging on it going back and forth with the knob trying to knock down the door, "i swear to fucking god, juliet. open this goddamn door before i kick it down!" the door didn't open still. he wanted to puke and cry, but he coudn't right now. he wanted-no needed to see if she was okay. he then walked back a little and ran to the door shoulder first and it finally opened. then he saw it. he saw that she was not okay and he wanted puke. he saw her lifeless body in the tub with blood coming out of her arms.
"juliet? no, no, no. juliet are you still there?" he asked walking over to her body. he hoped so fucking badly that she was still alive. then she coughed a little.
"oh my god. okay, juliet, everything is going to be okay. just trust me. you're going to be okay," he quickly grabbed his phone out of his back pocket and dialed 911, "just stay alive for me, okay juliet? just stay alive.
".......oh god, okay my girlfriend was trying to take her life p-please help i don't think she can last much longer....................just please hurry." he then hung up the phone and went back to her.
"everything is going to be okay. the hospital is coming and-" he got interrupted by her weak voice.
"shh, be quiet, calum. god, you talk too much," she laughed, but it was so weak she could barley talk, "you and i both know that i'm not going to live."
"shut up, juliet. you are going to-"
"i want you to promise me something, calum."
"....w-what?" calum said tears pouring down his face.
"before you can promise me anything wipe those goddamn tears off your face. i don't want you to be crying for me, calum," she said and he obeyed chuckling a little, "i want you to promise that you'll find somebody else. that you'll live your life along without me. you don't need me, calum. go have a happy life."
"............"
"calum, promise me or i'll haunt you forever."
calum laughed, "...okay, i promise. i love you so much, juliet."
"i love you more, cal." juliet said. calum was still crying. he couldn't stop crying.
right after she said that, she started to close her eyes.
"no! fuck, juliet, stay with me." calum said then the doctors and nurses ran in and toke her body.
"i love you." calum mumbled letting them take her body. calum couldn't honestly believe this. he felt like this was just all a horrible fucking dream and he would wake up any second seeing her next to him on the bed cuddling. he pinched himself multiple times, but nothing happen. he was still in the same damn postion with blood all over the tub. he slowly got up and rinsed his face off in the bathroom sink then he walked down the stairs, got his car keys, and drove to the hospital.
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it seemed like he sat there for hours, maybe even days. just waiting for something to happen. he could tell he was getting tired, so he asked the front desk lady if there was any coffee. the lady pointed to the far right and he said thanks so softly he doesn't even know if she heard him or not, but at the moment calum didn't really care. he just wanted her back. he walked over to where the coffee was and made some. when he was done he put some cream and 4 sugars just like he liked it. when calum brought it up to his lips and drunk it he thought it tasted horrid, but he needed it to stay awake for her.
when he got back to his seat he could hear his name being called and looked up to see the doctor.
"how is she? is she going to be okay? is she alive?" calum kept throwing questions at him, but the doctor didn't say anything.
"i'm afraid that....juliet did not survive. she passed away a couple minutes ago. we are sorry for your loss."
calum got numb. he didn't feel anything. he could see the doctor still speaking, but he couldn't hear anything. he looked at his hands and he was shaking. when he looked back up he saw that he was alone. no one was there except the stupid front lady desk chewing away on her stupid gum so fucking loud. he wanted to open her mouth and get the gum out, but he couldn't. he quickly ran out of the hospital and to the car. he walked back and forth mumbling 'this is all my fault'. the only reason he said that is because he was out with the lads and if he was still there at the house she would still fucking be alive and this would've never happened. he kicked his car and screamed at the top of his lungs.
"this is all my fault. this is all my fault. this is all my fucking fault." he mumbled to himself some more. he got into his car and sped away to his house.
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once calum got home he didn't know what to think or do. he didn't call any his mates, he didn't call her family, and he didn't even call his own family. he didn't even go on twitter because he was actually so pissed off at them. why would they send hate to her? of course he knew that she got some hate, but he didn't think it was this bad.
calum felt weak. he felt weak and numb. he couldn't cry. he felt as if he was going to get up he would fall back down. his head was pounding and his hands were shaking. he wasn't really sure what to do with life anymore. all he really wanted in life was to be her with her and get kids with her, but now she is gone he doesn't know what to do anymore.
he promised juliet to be happy without her and find another girl, but he feels like he's not going to find another girl that he will love just as much as he loved her. he wanted to cry, but he couldn't and that made him even more angry. he just sat there looking at absolutely nothing thinking that if she can't live then he might as well take his own life as well. he didn't want to live anymore.
he wanted to die.
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UNEDITED
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idk what i just wrote this story is going to be so sad im sorry
i dedicate this story to lukeshemmo bc she is just amazing and i love her lots and shes super funny
this is rly long this is like the longest thing i have ever written wow clap clap for me
okay that is all for now
((also i know i don't have a cover but i will have cover in like a week or so idk man just wait))
anyways, with love,
zoe xx
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