Behind The Mask (Jinxxley)

Chapter 4

His warm breath tickled my face. As he drew nearer, my heart accelerated until I thought it would burst my from my chest and fly away. When our lips touched, I felt them meld together. All this time, I was looking into Jinxx's beautiful blue eyes, but as he deepened the kiss, they slowly closed. His hand found it's way to the nape of my neck and he pulled me closer. Soon enough, I let my eyes close and enjoyed this fleeting moment of happiness. This was so different from kissing a woman. It wasn't sloppy and sticky with lipstick. It didn't taste like bubblegum or strawberry. It had it's own flavor, one that I couldn't quite figure out, but it was delicious.

Soon, Jinxx has his chest pressed against mine, I felt myself leaning back. Not to get away, but to get more comfortable. He treated me like a porcelain doll, taking care with my arm and head, when I was successfully laying on the ground, he climbed over me and straddled my hips while holding my good hand in place beside my head. Jinxx's lips weren't asking for anything more than what was happening now. He wasn't trying to get in my pants, though if he had asked, I'm sure I wouldn't have denied him. But no, they were merely testing what they could get away with, and that was fine by me. It was several minutes before Jinxx finally pulled back. He looked at me with so much love that it actually hurt.

"Wow..." He whispered as he looked down at me.

"Jinxx..." I whispered again to, not to ask him a question, but to rejoice in the feeling of saying his name.

We stayed this way, Jinxx straddling my hips, me pinned underneath him, until the silence became awkward. I felt my face grow hot and had to look away. Jinxx climbed off of me, mumbling and apology. He sat with his legs crossed and watched me intently. I couldn't really register what had happened. Somewhere in the back of my mind I was seriously going crazy over the fact that Jinxx had just kissed me, but in the surface all I could do was touch my tingling lips.

"So..." Jinxx tried to break the silence.

"Yeah..." I said weakly, and we were plunged into another awkward silence.

"Look...Ash, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." He stumbled with his words and nervously rubbed the back of his head.

"Hehehe." I laughed nervously. "Umm...yeah, it's okay." I tried to play off my embarrassment by not looking at him, instead, I toyed with a little ball that had a little bell inside. Obviously one of Chrome's many toys.

"It's just that, well...did you enjoy that as much as I did?" He asked abruptly.

For the second time that day I found myself blushing. "...Yeah..."

Jinxx exhaled and grinned at me, he reminded me of a child who had just gotten praised over a project he'd worked hard on. Damn he's so cute!

He began to advance on me again, and I panicked. I stood up as quickly as I could and rushed up the stairs, shouting my excuse over my shoulder "Ummm, I gotta go. Help yourself to whatever, bye!" I slammed the door behind me and locked it securely. Chrome, who had been napping on my bed, glance up at me then tucked her head back under her tail. I plugged my iPod into the speakers, put it on shuffle, and cranked it up to full volume. The universal symbol for "Don't talk to me I want to be alone." Iron Maiden blared Remember Tomorrow. I laid myself on the bed and looked at the black canopy above my bed. If I wanted Jinxx so bad, why had I run? It was everything I had always wanted, but I ran. Ugh! I hated being emotionally confused. I liked Jinxx. I liked him a lot. But he was still a married man, even if hewas going to divorce Sammi. I sighed.

"Unchain the colors before my eyes. Yesterday's sorrows, tomorrow's white lies. Scan the horizon, the clouds take me higher, I shall return from out of the fire. Tears for resemblance and tears for joy, tears for somebody and this lonely boy."