I broke you and I'll never forgive myself for that
I'm sorry
I wish I never looked at you
I shouldn't have spoken to you
I shouldn't have laughed at your joke that both of us knew wasn't funny at all
But I did
I did
I did
Things were never good
I was always on fire
I'm sorry I let you get burned
I was a flood
I'm sorry I let you drown
I'm sorry you had to see my like that
The pill bottle empty
half of the pills down my throat
the other half in my hand
or was it a razor in my hand?
Was that why my wrists were bleeding again?
I don't remember
I just remember not wanting to water the plants that were in the darkest parts of me
I let them die
You should have let me die too
Why did you have to make me throw up
Why did you hold me
Why were you shaking screaming crying
"Never do that again"
You held onto my bent parts and my frayed ends and my broken parts too
I thought I was finally going to be put back together again
So I stayed with you
I thought things were going to be good
But my scars still stayed my bones are shattered again again again again again I felt the bullet crush into my ribs every night when I couldn't sleep reminding me how worthless I am
The pill bottle empty
half of the pills down my throat
the other half in my hand
or was it a razor in my hand?
Was that why my wrists were bleeding again?
So you left
You left because you couldn't be the knight in shining armor
Because you couldn't put me back together again
Well I'm broken and alone
And your new girlfriend is very pretty.
