Too Much At Once

A Depressed Maknae

The maknae in B.A.P. didn't know what was making him feel this way, but he didn't like it. He wasn't sure when the feeling had hit him and wasn't sure why...?

At first, he loved fulfilling his dream as a young rapper and dancer, but no one told him it was this hard. He had fun improvising choreography with Jongup and freestyling with Yongguk, but it got old and tough to keep the "fun" vibe.

It hurt to force a smile on his face, it was exhausting to push his body to do the right moves, and it was weird how his mouth seemed to move on it's own during his raps or B.A.P. interviews. 

It seemed that the fans even noticed his lack of energy and well-being with all the comments he seemed to read on Twitter or Tumblr or some other website where fans talked about them.

Why does Zelo seem less happy?

Why can't he be just as awesome with his raps as Yongguk?

Why isn't his body as relaxed and free flowing as Jongup's?

Why isn't he excited to see us Babies?

A few tears slid down his face, not being able to keep them back anymore as he laid alone on his bed in Jongup's and his shared bedroom. He was waiting for his turn to take a shower, being the youngest meant he was the last to do almost everything.

Junhong sniffled, letting all his sobs out now since no one was around. Though a few minutes later, there was a soft knock on the door. Junhong frantically wiped his face clear, before muttering a "come in." In walked their visual with a deep frown on his face.

"Are you ok, Zelo-yah?" He questioned, coming into the room and sitting beside the younger.

"Of course hyung." He answered, forcing yet another smile on his face. Himchan sighed, looking at the younger sternly.

"I know you're lying Zelo; I can see the tear streaks on your cheeks." Junhong dropped his smile, looking away from the elder.

"I just... miss home, that's all." Himchan stared at the younger, trying to read him like a book, before nodding.

"I'm sorry Zelo. Maybe tomorrow after our schedule, you can give them a call." Junhong looked back at his hyung, with a small, honest smile.

"Ok, hyung. I'm sorry if my crying had bothered you. Go get some rest." Himchan gave the younger a hug, before leaving the room.

"I do need my beauty sleep." He chuckled, closing the door after him. Junhong sighed, hoping he didn't make the other suspicious or anything. Interrupting his thoughts, Jongup walked into their room with only a towel.

"The shower is free!" He smiled wide, heading towards his dresser to find some clothes. Junhong left quickly after grabbing his clothes, before the younger removed his towel in front of him. He's done it a couple times.

Once in the bathroom, Junhong shut and locked the door. He didn't like it when the others would come in during his showers, so he started to lock the entrance.

Junhong placed his clothes on the sink, sliding off his t-shirt. He glanced up at the mirror, frowning at his thin and flat body. Junhong was self-conscious about his body, because he was too tall, thin, and didn't have any build. 

He was about to unbutton his pants when he noticed a green object on the floor. A razor. 

Jongup must have dropped it during his shower. He thought, picking up the object and giving it a once over.