Dear Percy,
It's been years since we've last talked, and I've decided to write you through this journal. I miss you dearly, and I wish you were still here with me. I don't know where you are, why you left, or what had really happened. And as much as I miss you, I'll always have you in my heart.
You taught me to be stronger, and it was okay to feel hopeless. Your exact words were, "At least you can accept your feelings, the way you feel for yourself, instead of denying it." And I've come to live by those words of yours.
I understand now. I was never alone. You were always there, right beside me. But I was blind, I couldn't see that. Not until you left. Then I understood.
Only if I knew how much you were suffering, I would have helped you. I would have been there for you. Though, I was so oblivious. I wasn't able to see, you were dying inside.
I want you to know this, I loved you. I still love you. And even though your gone, I'll always love you.
I was sad, upset, angry, and very depressed after you left. But I wasn't there for you like you were there for me. I should have been. And if I could redo things, I would.
Wherever you are, Percy, just know, my love for you will never die. I'll wait to see you again. No, I can't wait to see you again. And I know I may never, but this feeling inside me is telling me I will cross paths with you again.
So dearest, wait for me. Watch over me. Don't forget who I am, or who I was to you. I will find you, because I know you're still alive, somehow, inside of me.
From Your Lover,
Violet Miles
